Dark thoughts

Keep your chin up Cornelia and take each day as it comes. Meditation and deep breathing really helps me. Do try it. Lots of love to you ♥️

sodapop thank you!

You’re very black and white hetty I m not sitting weeping into my handkerchief and never counting my blessings and never shedding a tear for those worse off but that doesn’t stop me realising that my mood is lower than normal and that my motivation enthusiasm for ‘doing’ has dropped
Just because I m not jumping around enthusiastically finding new hobbies and running the streets doesn’t mean I m depressed or uncaring or unable to manage myself through this period but it also didn’t mean I ve got to say I m enjoying it

Be kind to yourself Cornelia.

It's not trivial to miss the things you do, because they are part of huge changes in the whole world, not just single things that you can't do.

We are completely unable to plan for any sort of 'normal' and many of us are, in effect, in solitary confinement - which is well known to be a cruel punishment.

So if going for a walk, or doing meditation, or anything else (including avoiding the news) can help you to cope each day that is great, and is really all we can do.

I have reached a state of acceptance and resignation.
I don’t feel I will get back to normal, or how things were, again.
I can’t get about as my hip is so much worse than it was 8 weeks ago.
I accept that I may never get it replaced as being over 80, I could be isolating for many months.
I also accept that I may never see my D and GC again.
Theses are my darkest thoughts at 3am.

However I will enjoy sitting in the garden, I am ever grateful for technology which enables me to see and speak to family and friends and I thank God everyday for my GD who lives with me and looks after me so well.
I am dreading the day when she has to go back to work, she is working from home at present.

I will be very down then.

You can`t change today.
You can`t ulter the past that`s history.
But you should be possative about the future or you will make yourself ill with worry.

Watching Simon Reeve on the Mediterranean Sea and the migrants working in insufferable conditions put things in perspective for me. One of the migrants said he wanted to go back home but cannot find work. So much for the benefits of the EU comes to mind when they were going to eliminate this legal kind of slavery. I count my blessings that I am alive, my family are happy and we are not starving. Let’s hope this ends soon and people will come up feeling gratitude for their lives

Felt quite sorry for myself ( Scotland's Lockdown strict rules ) until I had a phone call from a relative to tell me about the death of a friend who was the real heart of her family . She was the same age as me and her husband , children and granchildren are shattered . He death was nothing to do with the current situation and really sudden. After I heard the news I though how luck we are to still be there for our families and with somew hope for the future.

Maybe Hetty58 has a husband or partner at home with her? That would make a huge difference. Someone on their own might be longing to get out and socialise!

Timetogo. So easy to say that. One should be able to express these feelings of despair that one gets now and then without being told the obvious This forum should be a good place to occasion let off steam.