Monday 10th December weigh in.

Glass thanks once again for a lovely supportive mail to us all. I will be thinking about you mum and hoping for good news soon.

How would everyone feel about starting completely afresh in 2013? I would prefer to forget 2012 and begin again.

Yesterday I had a girly day out and we ate far too much, shopped too much and ended up with an evening spa where we again ate too much and drank as well. I am sure I put on pounds! I can't see the next couple of weeks being very different and really don't want to think about my weight over the Christmas and new year period. Afther all as Noddy said IT'S CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!

Had an awful day at work and about to have a showdown with someone I work with; it's making me feel sick. Got home and ate some oat cakes with a small piece of cheese [good] then ate a large oiece of cake and polished off a box of chocolates someone had just given me...not because I enjoyed the chocolate but because it would make me feel even more miserable, which it has. As there is no mention of an invite to my daughters for Christmas I'm sinking into a black hole and wondering what the hell I've done to warrant all this. Sorry for whinge . Will start healthy eating again tomorrow but going to go to bed early tonight and have a weep. On a scale of things that can go wrong my life is pretty cushy [and I know that] but, quite frankly I want this year gone.

crimson have a bath, relax and then an early night, tomorrows another day {{{hug}}}

Thanks glass; had a good nights sleep [although, annoyingly fell asleep when the Rolling Stones programme was on, and I'd stayed up to watch it] and eating will be back to whatever is normal today. Does anyone else look on chocolate as some form of punishment ie I feel miserable therefore I shall eat chocolate to make myself really miserable' or is it just a crimson thing?

Oh Crimson I do feel for you. Please accept a really big hug.

I'm not sure it is the same but if I am alone in the evening and there is chocolate in the house I know I will eat it however big it is! Am I lonely or am I bored? I don't know but if it is there I will pig out!

Himself is out all day today and won't be back until late so I have wrapped all the Christmas chocs to avoid temptation.

I hope you will find something good to do at Christmas. Presumably you don't feel you can ask your daughter about it?

My son is going to put some feelers out tomorrow [I don't like using him as a go between but he seems happy to do so]. I might suggest that the children come to my house after Christmas for their presents and we can spend an afternoon with them here and have a mini christmas meal. And, I'm hoping to retire at the end of next year so the work thing will be out of the way as well. And then I can speak openly about what has been happening there . Thus far haven't eaten today [hurrah] so yesterdays calories are burning away [that is if hammering away at a keyboard uses up calories ]!

crimson

Glass I go on Wednesday. I'm still 13st 6lbs and no doubt will be more when I return. but what the hell, it's xmas

jeni, have a great time and never mind the calories! There's more to life, etc, and if you feel good because you're enjoying yourself they don't stick the same anyway

crimson, I'm not surprised you're hitting the chocolate. It does help (isn't there a chemical reason for that?) so can't you think of it as just comfort eating rather than a punishment? I do hope you get a happy conclusion to your problems [hug]

glass, thank you for your support - you are good at encouragement! to you too!