I am tired tonight ... tired of waiting , tired of being separated from my GS , tired of walking into his EMPTY ROOM , tired of all the work I have done seeming to be to no avail , tired of grieving and loss and losing my GS to the care system for now , tired of missing him , TIRED OF CRYING , tired of soldiering on and on and on and on with NO results , yes results in me but it not been seen , tired of it ALWAYS being ''am having a hard time'' , tired of it being hard , tired of it NEVER LETTING UP , tired of having some hope and then them saying no , tired of my heart aching , tired of doing and doing and doing but seemingly to no avail , tired of it ALL
I can DEAL with having social services in my life for a very long time and happily working with them - I can DEAL with my DD's alcoholism and everything it brings even though it's hard , what I CANNOT deal with any more is BEING SEPARATED FROM MY GS
I have asked God for this separation to END now for my GS's sake too!!! xx