Hi,
I understand how you feel. I have been on here before. Our 2 grandkids live just around the corner but we are not allowed to see them. We haven't seen them for 2 1/2 years. We're not allowed any contact, direct or indirect. So we are in contact instead with our grandkids overseas and they are lovely. When I was almost done grieving about this, I sat down and had a good think. I know several women, quite well, who are in the same boat. I know of lots more, equally. I sat down, made a list of clubs and organisations to join, went to a different church, and got stuck into everything I could. Believe me, this helped. Most times. As time goes by the pain gets less. My son is welcome here as long as he doesn't upset me. My DIL is not welcome as she started this, will not accept any peace offerings, and has ostracised me and my hubby. And the kids, I believe, have shown no inclination to come and see us, which would depend on what they've been fed. Things may change. Equally well, they may not. It no longer concerns me. It's their loss. But boy, I'd LOVE to be in your shoes. Take care, enjoy your Christmas, and I'm sure you'll feel better soon.
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