Oh baby1, please may I give you a little advice that I was given when I was feeling similar to you? Just because a woman becomes a mother, doesn’t mean she stops being somebodies child.
My dil saw her mum at least twice a week before dgs was born, I was lucky if I saw my son twice a month. They also used to have girls days, theatre trips, coffee dates etc. This bond didn’t disappear just because my dgs was born.
Now I want to be completely honest, my dil is fantastic. She has been very forgiving when I have behaved less than desirably, and it is thanks to her I see my dgs every week. She is the one who keeps me up to date on how the little family is doing, and I get several photos sent every week. My son actually made a comment recently that somehow dil got luck & sees her mum less now dgs is born, but he’s stuck seeing me more - I’m choosing to believe it was meant in good humour!
When my dgs was very small he struggled to gain weight. Dil was adamant something was wrong, despite health visitors claiming it to be a feeding issue. Because of this, dil was forced to take my dgs to clinics every week. If my ds didn’t go, dils mother did. I was so hurt, why wasn’t I being included? I found out later (from my ds) that dil left the clinic in tears, every single week. Her mum wasn’t in the room when dil chatted to health visitors, she used to wait outside to give dil privacy. What she did was comfort her distressed daughter when they left.
It turned out, dil has been correct, dgs did have a health issue (thankfully now resolved) but this required a lot of tests and hospital appointments. Dil sent the same ‘copy & pasted’ text to us all with any info following these, but guess who she turned to for comfort when she was scared? Her mother. The morning of one particularly frightening test, my son chose to go to work. Dil phoned her mum, very upset and scared, so her mum went to keep her company. My dgs didn’t know who was there, he didn’t know he was due to have tests, he wasn't nervous or scared, dil was. Her mum could make her a cup of tea just the way she liked it, and hold her hand while she was crying.
My dgs and dil were both recently rather poorly with a virus. I found out dils mum had visited twice to help on evenings when she wouldn’t usually go. I’d had my usual, very pleasant, (but shorter than usual, due to them both being ill) weekly visit. I felt very jealous, why wasn’t I asked to help with dgs? I was being pushed out as the paternal grandmother! It was only when I bumped into dils mum, who told me how very worried she’d been about my dil. She knew my dgs was been well taken care off by dil, she was concerned about her own little girl. I admit, I felt rather ashamed of myself after speaking to her. She hadn’t been there as Gran to dgs, but to mum to my dil. All my dgs needed was his mum, my dil. That’s what he had. She needed somebody.
What I’m trying to say is that yes, it is important to remember that paternal grandparents love their dgc just as much as maternal grandparents. But I think sometime we as grandparents need to remember that sometimes, the other grandparents are there as parents to their ac, not as grandparents. Could you offer the same comfort and support to your dil as her mother does? I’m not sure I would be that good at it.
Please don’t let petty jealous ruin your grandparenting experience. I almost did, I’m so grateful people stepped in and spoke some sense to me before I did.