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I'm not going to tell him.....

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grannyactivist Fri 06-May-16 15:57:18

but I'll bet you think I should.

Next week we're off on holiday to visit old friends in Norway, this couple have been very close to my husband since he was a boy and they're now very old and frail. The husband has terminal cancer and so we are not likely to see them again. It will be hard for my husband to say goodbye. I'm flying home and my husband will get home three weeks later as he's cycling home.

I've had a sore throat for some time and had the feeling of having a lump there. I saw the GP last week and got a very speedy referral to the hospital. I didn't tell my husband about the hospital appointment because I wanted to know what I was dealing with before worrying him. I saw the consultant today for an endoscopy and there is in fact a lump in my throat, which the consultant suspects is benign, but he's referred me for an MRI scan and biopsy. I imagine the date of the scan will be as soon as I return from my holiday. So, I've decided not to mention it to my husband. If I tell him he'll insist on returning home with me and thereby miss out on time to process saying goodbye to his old friend and on some much needed R&R. The lump is most likely benign and if it isn't then at least my lovely man will have had a great experience to set him up for caring for me.

We usually talk about everything and if I was worried and needed his support I would certainly tell him, but I really want him to have his adventure. If the lump does turn out to be worrisome he can fly home and be back the same day if I need him to. (I haven't told anyone else either so this is our little secret - shh!)

Lona Thu 09-Jun-16 17:11:49

Good luck from me too ga, hope the news will be all good. sunshine

morethan2 Thu 09-Jun-16 19:15:05

Fingers crossed

harrigran Thu 09-Jun-16 19:29:19

Thinking of you ga and wishing you a speedy recovery post anaesthetic flowers

cornergran Thu 09-Jun-16 19:35:51

I also has anaesthetic problems, explained three years ago, process adjusted and all was well so, please do tell everyone responsible for your care. I'm sure you and your MiL will be delighted to see you DH and have him share the load. Good luck, will be thinking of you. Sending flowers and sunshine

grannyactivist Sat 11-Jun-16 16:38:48

Hooray - The Wonderful Man is home and has heard my confession. wink Fortunately he absolutely understood my thinking and is very grateful that I did spare him (and our children) the knowledge - and especially the decision of whether to continue with the cycle ride. Pulling out would definitely have meant explaining why he'd done so to the children and with exams to be taken that would have been an unnecessary burden for them.

It is very good to have him home and to be able to talk openly about it. I've never kept anything of importance from him before and it wasn't easy, but I'm glad I did. He's as brown as a nut and has had a lovely adventure and now he's working on the allotment as I sit here drinking tea. All is well. smile

Thanks for being a listening ear once again pals.

Indinana Sat 11-Jun-16 17:58:47

Oh grannya what a tremendous relief for you - not only to have him home again, but to have been able to unburden yourself on him and have his full support and understanding. You sound like a rock solid couple. I feel very hopeful that all will continue to be well for you x

Cherrytree59 Sat 11-Jun-16 18:13:39

ga 'you can't keep a good woman down!'
And you certainly are good woman.
You have put everybody before your self.
I know you will get through this.
Just let everybody at least be there for you now ga
flowers

Deedaa Sat 11-Jun-16 21:54:07

Brilliant GA Think what a depressing time you would all have been having if you'd told him. His holiday would have been spoiled, the children would have been upset and you would have felt guilty as well as worried.

How nice to have a man who understands smile

cornergran Sat 11-Jun-16 22:37:25

So pleased ga, you definitely did the right thing and your wonderful man is surely that. All good wishes for the future.

marmar01 Sat 11-Jun-16 22:47:22

ask that the tests could be carried out for when you are both home after the holiday,you will need someone to be with you after a endoscope any ways. Go and have a lovely holiday and dont worry about anything.

Neversaydie Sun 12-Jun-16 10:42:36

Had similar issue re telling my daughters about having potential breast cancer (thankfully not)checked out .Both said afterwards they would have worried for weeks .DH is very much the 'worry about it when you have to 'school .

icanhandthemback Sun 12-Jun-16 10:56:43

Good luck with your GA and I hope you get good results. Well done for keeping quiet. I would never have managed it as I am too much of an open book.

grannyactivist Wed 15-Jun-16 12:56:58

Wow - that was quick. I'm going in for the biopsy tomorrow! I still feel very positive so it will come as a bit of a surprise if the thing does turn out to be malignant. The Wonderful Man has been offered compassionate leave and is actually taking it so that he can stay at home to keep an eye on me. smile I do feel awkward about being the cause of so much worry so I'm hoping the results will be good news and come through quickly.

shysal Wed 15-Jun-16 13:25:05

Fingers crossed for tomorrow, GA. Your wonderful man is living up to his name! flowers

kittylester Wed 15-Jun-16 13:42:53

Good luck for tomorrow GA! You know we are all with you in spirit! brew

Indinana Wed 15-Jun-16 13:49:53

Will be thinking about you tomorrow GA, hope it all goes well. Good luck flowers

Luckygirl Wed 15-Jun-16 14:05:29

Yes - good luck. I hope it all goes well.

harrigran Wed 15-Jun-16 14:10:43

Will be thinking of you ga.

Cherrytree59 Wed 15-Jun-16 14:17:15

Hope all goes well for you GA
I'm sure your DH wil make bigbrewwhen you get home, while you put your feet up

rubylady Thu 16-Jun-16 02:22:31

Good luck GA for today. I hope all goes well and the results are what we all are hoping for. Take good care of yourself. flowers

Nana3 Thu 16-Jun-16 07:57:47

Got everything crossed for you Ga lots and lots of love xxxxxx

Lona Thu 16-Jun-16 08:03:55

Good luck today grannya, lots of positive vibes and love and hugs winging your way. sunshine

Maggiemaybe Thu 16-Jun-16 08:48:16

Best wishes for today, GA. x

Oldgreymare Thu 16-Jun-16 09:56:34

Just catching up and wishing you well for today GA.

Elrel Thu 16-Jun-16 10:27:52

Thinking of you and wishing you well x