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I'm not going to tell him.....

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grannyactivist Fri 06-May-16 15:57:18

but I'll bet you think I should.

Next week we're off on holiday to visit old friends in Norway, this couple have been very close to my husband since he was a boy and they're now very old and frail. The husband has terminal cancer and so we are not likely to see them again. It will be hard for my husband to say goodbye. I'm flying home and my husband will get home three weeks later as he's cycling home.

I've had a sore throat for some time and had the feeling of having a lump there. I saw the GP last week and got a very speedy referral to the hospital. I didn't tell my husband about the hospital appointment because I wanted to know what I was dealing with before worrying him. I saw the consultant today for an endoscopy and there is in fact a lump in my throat, which the consultant suspects is benign, but he's referred me for an MRI scan and biopsy. I imagine the date of the scan will be as soon as I return from my holiday. So, I've decided not to mention it to my husband. If I tell him he'll insist on returning home with me and thereby miss out on time to process saying goodbye to his old friend and on some much needed R&R. The lump is most likely benign and if it isn't then at least my lovely man will have had a great experience to set him up for caring for me.

We usually talk about everything and if I was worried and needed his support I would certainly tell him, but I really want him to have his adventure. If the lump does turn out to be worrisome he can fly home and be back the same day if I need him to. (I haven't told anyone else either so this is our little secret - shh!)

kittylester Sat 09-Jul-16 17:57:03

Brilliant news Ga, so sorry to hear about your sister.

Have a good holiday - you will need your strength to help your sister. I hope your mum is ok!

cornergran Sat 09-Jul-16 18:40:25

So pleased for you ga. Difficult news for and about your sister. Wishing her well. Enjoy your holiday. It sounds just what is needed.

harrigran Sat 09-Jul-16 18:44:46

Good news ga, so pleased for you. My sister had tests for a growth and it came back as not sinister whereas mine was. Strange how things happen together.

Deedaa Sat 09-Jul-16 20:05:42

So glad to here your news ga but how sad about your sister. I hope they've caught it early.

grannyactivist Sun 10-Jul-16 00:49:01

harrigran I do think that when we get to a certain stage in life good health becomes something of a 'lottery'. There rarely seems to be any rhyme or reason as to why one would be stricken and not another. I hope you're doing well at the moment and getting the treatment you need. flowers

I don't know how bad my sister's situation is because although the biopsy confirmed there is a 'golf ball' sized tumour on the tail of her pancreas, she hasn't yet been told what stage it's at. I strongly suspect that's because she doesn't want to know. sad

harrigran Sun 10-Jul-16 10:53:11

Thanks ga,I am on my sixth cycle of chemo at present and the side effects are not pleasant. DH is marvellous he does absolutely everything in the house as well as driving me to weekly appointments.
I understand your sister not wanting to know what stage her tumour is but in my experience they do not hold back, I was told every minute detail and even the percentage of chances of survival. I told the surgeon that I thought it was quite brutal but he said "you need to know everything so that you can make decisions" but I think they have to cover themselves legally too.

grannyactivist Sun 10-Jul-16 13:41:13

I'm happy that you're being well looked after by your husband and thankfully cancers are very slow growing when we get to a certain age, so hopefully the outlook is very positive for you.

My sister is in the USA and is most definitely an ostrich - she can't cope with anything bad happening and does the equivalent of sticking her fingers in her ears and 'la la la-ing' if there's bad news about. She's also a beggar for ignoring people who know what they're on about e.g. medical specialists, in favour of giving weight to what happened to 'my friend's boyfriend's cousin who had the same problem'! She drives me demented. She can also be inventive with the truth, so sometimes it's very hard to pick through what she says to find the facts. Her son has given up his job and is flying out to the States to be with her so I'm hoping he can fill us in with the details.

Indinana Sun 10-Jul-16 13:45:45

I am so pleased for you ga. You're such a very big-hearted person, you really deserve this good news. So sorry to hear of your sister's news but at least you'll be in a stronger position to support her now. flowers