Black dog gang

maggie, they are only thoughts and the feelings they stir up cause such distress but hold onto ‘ they are only thoughts ‘ do let us know tomorrow how the day went x

Not so good today Annie how have you been.
Maggie I can’t say what it is, it scares me so much I don’t want to say it out loud. If that makes sense. And today I have have a bad headache all day ... I will say what’s troubling me when I get my own head round it. It has been really hard this time round errrr. I have been reading every one else’s story’s not felt like much at all today.. hope it’s a better day tomorrow it’s my youngest granddaughters birthday I really want to go and enjoy her day with her ...

Good morning Joce. I do hope the day with your granddaughter helps take your mind off your thoughts, at least for a while. Let us know how it goes. Morning Annie, "they are only thoughts" is my new mantra! Hope you have a peaceful day.

Nannie it's good to meet you. It does help getting it out - I've found that I get such loving kindness and good advice here. Hope your day is better today.

Good morning all x

Yes maggie. ‘They are only thoughts’ , Church today ? I so hope going to the service brings you what it brings me , I long to be able to attend Church again, miss going so much.

Hope it’s a kind day for everyone who posts here.

I miss my younger granddaughter, haven’t seen her for nearly two weeks, there is hope her car will be repaired by the end of this week, I so hope so, she needs it, she has exams soon and my recycling is building up in the bungalow.

good morning .. today lets celebrate the achievements we have. No matter what they are if we do something today that is a big thing for us lets use that positive feeling xxxx

Great idea nanny let’s share them ?

Morning all. Thank you Maggie. Whoop whoop so pleased about your granddaughters car Annie hopefully you will see her very soon.. Hi nanny yes great idea. I am feeling a bit more positive this morning, may be it because I am going to a party.. fingers crossed for the rest of the day... hope you all have a good day. You are all invited to our party, she is only three but sure we can have some fun haha ???

Good morning everyone
Hope the day goes well enough for us.
Very best from Dawn.

Good morning Dawn hope you have a good day ?

nanny2507 no answers but a big virtual hug. Agree with annie you should see your GP.

Maggie that is a small step but in the right direction. Keep it up, a little at a time.

Actually Nanny I do have some advice after thinking about you. I also suffer from low self esteem despite know full well that I shouldn't. A few years back we were going through some old photos and found one of DH and I before we married. I was totally shocked to discover I was really pretty! I think I was quite stunning, a bit like Sophia Loren. Of course I don't look like that now but it did make me realise that I had a false view at the time. Now all I see in the mirror is my mother and she was not nice to me.

joce enjoy the party and if you feel stressed go and ask someone else how they are. People love to talk about themselves so you won't have to

nonnie you are not your mother. It’s sad your mother was unkind to you, can you try to accept her unkindness was her problem not yours . Your husband and family love you. She had problems which caused her to be unkind to her child . When we are children we have no idea what problems our parents are coping with.

Just a thought, anyone done or is doing their family tree ?

Thanks Annie seeing her face in the mirror reminds me I am the person she made me, the person who was determined to be better in many ways. In that I know I have succeeded.

No, not doing my family tree, it would probably be full of boring people!

Thank you Nonnie and Anniebach two pages back...

No access via GP to therapy because of lack of money locally and also only one poor psychologist covering huge rural area.

No one wants to work in Wales.

A cooler day today...hope all you grans on here are comfortable today...

nonnie ooooh , boring people , that is rather dismissive ?

Sparkle so sorry therapy isn’t available for you

Anniebach thank you, I need to find one who will do vie Skype or FaceTime too.

Nonnie about self esteem, it took me until my mid forties to realise I might have been pretty. I have somehow learned, by formerly succeeding at work, that what I heard from my mother about my being ugly and useless, is nonesense, and that she was delusional and family members who continue in that vein are being delusional about me and projecting it.

But it’s affect can be deep. I will go to church tomorrow midday in a nearby big town, for me it’s helps me. Gods love is true and never wavering.

Sparkle that’s horrible, try to ignore those family members , difficult I know. That they are not nice people is their problem, rise above them. Yes God’s love will never fail you .

Quote ‘ you are honoured in my eyes and I love you’

annie I think of you often and just wanted to say that your idea of gardening at the front of your home and sitting outside on a bench sounds a really good idea. You are a lovely person annie. So kind and caring to others. I do hope this works for you. I know it will take courage but you can do it.
For all of you suffering with this dreadful illness I pray your days improve that you gain in strength and find some peace of mind

Thank you Annie.

Also Lo I will be with you always Matthew 28:20.

I am feeling really down today - crying and depressed. I know there are others much worse off than me but I can't help the way I feel. I have no family and few friends - who have problems of their own. Sorry if this is bringing everyone down I just feel I need to tell someone.

Oldwoman70 sitting with you, know how those awful feelings feel. Sometimes a good cry and they might lift for a while..

Sorry you are feeling so miserable old. Has something happened to make you feel so bad today? Sometimes the weekends are worse when you are feeling down. Is there anything on TV tonight you look forward to watching or something you could do to lift your spirits? A virtual hug is on its way to you. Wish I could make you feel better.