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Doodle yes I have an alarm button, but I don’t have anyone for them to contact should I press it so they will send the police, being stuck on a banana board and having a police car
arrive causes more anxiety, the only other person in the Cul de
sac that this happens to is the lady next door , when they are called there one is armed !

Annie we are as we are! I seem to be more organised since DH has been unable to do anything much. I quite like it but flag at lunch time and don't usually do much after that.

BlueSky agree, Doodle always seems 'sorted'

Polly12 I am sorry you see us like that but I suppose beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I have found this thread very helpful and supportive. I do hope you are more understanding with your DD. As usual Doodle Fri 11-Jun-21 14:55:17 puts it all very well.

Scardycat good luck with using the old specs, they told me they could reuse mine but only if in current stock. Of course they were not!!

Don't 'stress about it' reminds me of 'pray about it'. Why don't they pray for me, why assume I'm not doing it?

Hope you had a good time with your friend.

Polly12 Fri 11-Jun-21 14:19:27 in the same way you help someone with an illness you don't have or still have. EMPATHY.

Joce all sounds good

Rowantree that sounds like you made very good use of your early morning start. I think perhaps you expect too much of yourself, no need to compare with others.

Not sure it is any comfort to you but my DH spends hours online achieving nothing I can see when he could be doing some of the things which need doing.

If you feel alone at WI, look for someone else who appears to be alone, they will probably be really happy you went to talk to them.

Sorry I can't answer all, DS has just arrived to work on the things in the garden I cannot reach.

Our dear Annie can’t believe you are still not in your bed, shame on them!!! you can not keep going on like it.. don’t know how loud you have to shout...
I’m sure your MTs result will be fine, well done to your other grandchildren you must be so proud of them Annie..
I know that estranged felling. Come round to thinking there loss.
Hugs to you Anne...x

Rowantree hope today’s a better day for you.

Have a good Sunday all

Afternoon all x Well I was in the garden under the parasol but had to come in and put the fan on as I felt weird. Not sure this is normal? Will mention it to the pharmacist on Wed when I have a phone med review. Probably to do with ageing again but it’s hard to accept that various problems are now due to ‘age’. DH feels the same about his reduced mobility which luckily so far I haven’t experienced.
Annie sadly your lack of help from agencies which ate supposed to provide, makes us all think. Is there anything out there when you need it most? Estrangement... my mum and her sister, fell out and never spoke again, so sad.
No walk today till this evening!
Have a pleasant afternoon all x

Annie I hope you are able to sleep in your bed soon. The wheels seem to be grinding very slowly in your case.
I have had a lovely afternoon with my Grandson, such a bundle of energy, and so positive about everything.
Hope everyone is having a pleasant Sunday.

Hello all.
Oh Annie it must be so hard to sleep when it’s so warm- you should not have to put up with this. Do you have a fan to help?
You must have so many different feelings looking at your photos as there must be happy memories there too. Where did you go pony trekking?
Do your sisters and brother know the difficulties you are facing at the moment- it’s so sad that they can’t reach out to you.
Fingers crossed for MTs results - she sounds such a lovely young person I,m sure she,ll succeed in whatever she does.
Blue Sky - good idea to go in the garden later in the day it’s lovely then.
Maybe you could give WI a chance - do you know anyone who is a member? Obviously it is nice to go with someone if you can. The ladies at my WI are mostly really nice and very supportive when anyone needs help of any kind.
Doodle- you are so right that we must enjoy the good days - not always as easy as it sounds though is it.
You always give such sensible and encouraging advice thank you.
Joce - I too love to be called ‘my love’ it makes me feel cared for.
Glad you are sleeping better- I guess feeling more rested makes you more able to deal with the dreaded early morning anxiety.
I loved your quote about crying but my problem is I can’t cry any more- it’s horrible. I just cry inside.
Rowantree - I used to always look at people when we were out and think they had life all sorted but I guess that they could have been looking at me and thinking the same!! Not many people go through life without troubles or problems it’s just that anxiety magnifies everything so much.
As I said to Bluesky if you are able give WI a chance you will find friendship and kindness. There are lots of interest groups to join in such as walking and book clubs you might find interesting and there is nothing to lose but much to be gained. Hope you soon feel brighter.
Nonnie- oh dear bet my glasses are old stock! Serves me right as they are the first really nice frames I,ve ever bought?
It was so good to see my friend thank you I have missed her. Even put on a dress in her honour and when I got there she had too! It was good to drive a ‘proper’ drive again felt like a normal afternoon.
Take care allxx

Gosh I certainly went on a rant this morning, lack of sleep and isolation can cause problems.

Joyce thank you, my mini tornado has had such a difficult time through university, first year her mother died so she was
advised to drop out and start the following year. Then for her
second and third years the virus so all lectures etc on line.

BlueSky so sorry you experienced feeling weird, could be the heat but yes discuss it with your pharmacist .
Yes estrangement is sad, I have three sisters living in the same town and nieces and nephews, I miss them, what hurts so much is they cut off from my son in law and my grandchildren,
they are Godparents to them.

rafichagran thank you my love , time with our grandchildren is so special, I was blessed to have my three close until they moved away following their mother’s suicide, but we are still
very close in our love if not in distance.

Scaredycat thank you my love, been pony trekking often in the past, always enjoyed it, N. M. and West Wales. Great that you enjoyed meeting with your friend, well done for going ?

I will give everyone a choice, it’s either ‘my love’ or I go all
theatrical and call everyone’ darling ‘ ?. x

Annie I’m glad you got an alarm. Even if it’s only for emergencies. I don’t like to think of you without help although an armed response wasn’t quite what I was thinking of, ?
Nonnie good advice. There is often several people who are on the outside of things at meetings. Many will be happy to chat to someone.
My specs couldn’t be reused either. Hey ho.
Hope you had a good time with your DS.
Joce how have you been today? I have been organising my sewing. Moving my machine and all the fabric I’ve accumulated onto my new table and getting a bit sorted out.
Bluesky I get so hot when it’s warm and wilt a bit myself.
I have had these hot feelings for years now. Hope you are feeling better this evening. Wise to go for a walk when it’s cooler.
rafinchagran glad you had a good time with your grandson. That’s should lift the spirits.
scaredycat you made me laugh. I try to be encouraging but sensible ….not likely?
I’m so sorry you cry inside, that is so sad, Hope life brings you some better times.
Glad you had a nice time with your friend.
Annie I have always thought it was such a lovely endearment when you say ‘my love’ to us. It is so much part of your caring personality. Don’t let someone’s comment put you off. We all appreciate it.
The only time I have ridden a pony (was a donkey actually) was on the beach. Even though it was more than 60 years ago I can still remember the feeling of the donkeys mane in my fingers and the movement as he walked along. I loved it. I would have loved pony trekking. The pictures obviously brought a smile to your DGC.
Sleep well all, x

Doodle your post made me smile, donkey I remember it well my sister got on one at the seaside, it ran of with her, so my brother took me of mine and chase down the beach after her ?????
I’m constantly tidying my little room I really do need to get rid of some things out of there. It does help when in struggling to go in there to tidy..
Annie please don’t stop with MY LOVE it’s you and I love it x
Have a peaceful evening/ night all ?

Hi everyone . I coped with the long drive better than expected and am in Yorkshire till Tuesday. My daughter is not too bad but clearly exhausted after working in the Nhs during this difficult time. She’s put on a bit of weight which she worked hard to lose but am hoping as things improve she will lose it
again.
Annie I’m so sorry you are not getting the help you need. It is hard to sleep in the heat but I do enjoy it through the day

Hi all x

Ellie Anne Great to learn to are with your daughter, and you
found the long drive wasn’t what you feared , enjoy your time
with your daughter, well done you ?

How is everyone ? Preparing to bask in the sunshine ?

I decided yesterday ‘enough is enough’, made a list of ‘to do’

phone physiotherapist, occupational therapist, opticians,
Age Cymru for help with iPads, council, ?, forgot to charge
telephone ! ?

Annie you sound a bit more positive today. It’s about time you got some real help.
Having spent the weekend tidying the house I spent this morning cleaning me. Shower and hair wash ironing after lunch (clothes that is, not ironing me …..although there are several wrinkles ?) Walk later this evening when it is cooler,
I have the jitters today. For some reason the heat makes me more anxious.
Joce that’s a fun memory of your sister and brother.
Tidying or sorting things out can be therapeutic. Distracts your mind from other things.
EllieAnne so pleased you made it ok. Glad you are with your DD. Many have put on weight during lockdown. Hope you have a lovely visit.

Annie good for you, hope you got somewhere today, when your phone had charged ? do hope you have had some positive results..

Doodle I have been doing some long awaited cleaning today, do feel better when it’s done...

EllieAnne enjoy your time with your daughter..

Hope everyone in the BDG are having a good day..

Ellie Anne- Well done for getting to Yorkshire- what a lovely county it is. I hope you are having a lovely time with your daughter. She must have been so pleased to see you. No wonder she is exhausted the NHS workers have worked so hard for so long . Have a safe journey home
Annie- working through your to do list will keep you busy- better with a fully charged phone though!! It really is time you got the proper help you need so hope you get results. Lots of sun here today but a bit too hot to sit in it .
Doodle- I definitely could do with a bit of an iron!! Enjoy your evening walk it will be lovely later on and will help keep the jitters at bay.
Love to all

Oh so much ‘tidying up ‘, I am on the sofa ! I do tidy up the
coffee table, does that count ?

The heat makes me jittery too, and lack of sleep, never thought
I would hope for rain. Full sun hits my living room window by
6.00am, I get back to sleep at 11.00am for an hour and again in
the afternoon.

Annie the coffee table does count, I think they take a lot of sorting out well the do in my house everything goes on it ?‍♀️

Hi all x

Cooler today thankfully, back in the winter i was saying I was looking forward to summer !

Joyce thank you, my coffee table is my desk, my kitchen table, my stitching bench, !

How is everyone? has the postponement of 21st June for England caused you upset ?

I am not hopeful about support with the wheelchair, no replies
to emails or telephone requests.

Hello Annie and all.
Been on the phone for ages this morning. Friends with such sad worries. Quick walk after lunch when it’s cooler and then some tidying.
Certainly tidying the coffee table counts. My DH uses our sofa as a filing tray. I asked him once if he had a system. Arm for Urgent, seat for Pending, foot stool for Action ?
Sorry you haven’t had any replies. What is the matter with people. ?
Postponement of 21st means no meal out with both my sons together so have arranged them separately with a Hope we can get together later in the summer. Also we have a round Britain cruise booked in July. Not sure if that will go ahead or not.
Other than that, no much changes for us.
joce I too feel better when the cleaning is done…….I just hate doing it, ?
Scaredycat yes it would be nice to get rid of the wrinkles but now I have reached a certain age I worry a lot less about what I look like. Never been a beauty so I suppose I don’t miss it ?
Have a good day all x

Back in Scotland and it’s cold! DH has looked after himself fine but as soon as I’m back he just waits for his dinner to appear.maybe I’m a mug for doing it.
Was good to see my daughter but difficult at times. She goes to bed really early and I’m left to amuse myself. Thank goodness for Internet. She doesn’t have a tv. I read a lot of books,
Annie I do hope you can get help soon.
Scaredy cat I cant cry either.
Yorkshire is lovely but she doesn’t live in a scenic part but i see some lovely scenery on the journey.

Help EllieAnne hope you had a good time with your DD.
Nice to be able to see how she is. My DH couldn’t cook his dinner. If it wasn’t for me he’d live on toast and takeaways.
Hope the visit cheered you a bit.
How is everyone else today?

Evening all x Doodle I’m the same I get upset about friends’ sad news and I keep thinking about it (when I don’t have my own things to worry about too). Anyway I can’t help it, I can’t be ‘I’m alright Jack’.
A cruise around Britain wow that should be something! Hopefully it will go ahead. Same here I’ ve never been a great beauty, must be harder when you lose your looks!
Ellie Anne good you managed to go and see your daughter, even if it’s not always easy. As I said before my sons live overseas and I usually go on my own as DH can’t do long haul. Now when we’ll finally be able to go I’m not sure I’ll want to leave him and he’s worried about me travelling on my own! I think we’ve become joined at the hip during the pandemic!
Anne just unbelievable the way you are being treated. But why, there are no excuses now, they can’t keep blaming Covid!
The lovely weather continues, our summer I guess!
Have a pleasant evening all x

Doodle when you go on the ‘round Britain cruise, let me know when you are on the Welsh coastline, ??????? x

Ellie Anne you had a change of scenery, and you did the drive, do count that as a positive x

BlueSky yes you get upset by friends bad news, you are a caring friend x

I got in the wheelchair this morning , the lovely woman who comes in 5 mornings a week to do what I can’t, which is everything which can’t be done on the sofa , she even watered my shrubs yesterday so I went to the back door to see how they
are doing, they look lovely.

Bluesky that’s the trouble with sympathy/empathy, you imagine yourself in the same situation. It is hard to be detached from others suffering.
I have no idea if our cruise will happen or not. I am trying not to look forward to it too much as the previous 4 times we’ve booked have been cancelled. Still it’s only a holiday and much as we would look forward to it it’s not the be all and end all of things.
Yes Annie if we do get to go I will certainly tell you when we’re near Wales and give you a wave. ?
So pleased you managed to get in your wheelchair and to see your shrubs in the garden. Wish you could be out there with them for a while.
Sleep well all x

Hi all x

Is the heat causing a rise in feeling of anxiety for anyone?

BlueSky have you checked your blood pressure? Mine is low and the same thing happens to me. Drinking more can help but not always

Rafichagran spending time with you GS sounds lovely.

Scardycat oh yes, can't cry, I was like that for a very long time. A bit better now but often feel like a good cry would be welcome. There is hope.

Annie yes tough for MT but it sounds as if she has the sort of personality to make the most of it and perhaps it will make her stronger that she might otherwise have been?

Or you could start each post with mhwah xx mhwaw xx darling

Any success with those phone calls yet?

Not happy about the postponement, last vestige of hope that we would see our family in the school holidays has gone.

So good you got in your wheelchair. Presumably not for long as you would have needed help to get out?

Doodle have you overcome the jitters? I think you were very brave to book that cruise, I'm not yet up to being around a lot of people. Will be interesting to hear how it went and whether you felt safe.

Its good to be the one people feel they can tell their troubles too but it can be hard to cope with too.

Well one Ellie Anne I'm sure your DD appreciates your effort.

It was good to see DS & DiL and to get the help but DS was so tired. Without going into detail his company is taking advantage of his capabilities during the pandemic when they are short staffed and he has been doing 2 extra jobs plus his OU degree. They have said he will be back to normal in the autumn. We had a roast dinner on one of the hottest days of the year! He loves a roast.

Been doing huge amounts of heavy gardening which means indoor things have been left undone but I can do those when the weather changes. Have decided to just do the accounts and then spend the afternoon on a sun lounger.