Black DOG 13

Hvdy he goes to the shop 5 mins away to get a newspaper. Other than that an occasional trip to the golf. Last time was2 weeks ago. Other than that he is sitting in front of tv or computer.

Love to all, too tired to speak much. xx

Ellie Anne it sounds so unhappy - can you two discuss it or has it got past that point?

Ellie Anne I don't know the background to your story, but it sounds a miserable way to live. 💐

Hi all x explanation

Moved to bed, physiotherapist forgot the effect on twisted arthritis joints, flare up, much pain in every joint. Banned from
using iPad, hands in padding.

Last Sunday night, reaching for something off coffee table I slipped off bed, was stuck between bed and coffee table, shoulder and arm twisted, tried moving couldn’t, pressed helpline, no ambulance for 6 - 8 hours ! They phoned younger
daughter, she lives in Lincolnshire! She phoned my brother who came to get me on bed, was stuck for 2 hours, shoulder and neck twisted still.
Daughter came down next day, she contacted social services,
i am to have help but a waiting list.

Can’t wash, dress etc. and have infection.

Carer gave me ipad so I could explain to you all, i miss you all so much .

Ellie Anne friends please help her find self confidence, she has so little.

Thanks to all who remembered it was 1st November my darling Catherine died, carer read your messages.

My love to all and keep walking xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Poor Annie and what dreadful ambulance service.

Anniebach What a terrible ordeal. You've had an awful time of it. I hope you get some extra help in the way of carers, perhaps. We've all missed you xx
EllieAnne I don't know what to say about your situation, but it sounds very unhappy for you both.

Just had a flying visit from Son1 and GD1 - they're on the way to her rugby training (it's 5 miles from us). She's going to stay overnight at his house and he'll drop her at school in the morning - the mother is trying to offload her to him as much as possible, which is a good thing. I hope everyone on BD is ok. x

So glad to see you back Annie. What a horrible ordeal for you. Hope the help you so deserve and need is forthcoming.
With love x M

I'm so very glad you posted, Annie - horrific time. Hugs and love, holding you in the light.

HVDY - good to hear about your son's increasing involvement, may, as you say, it continue.

More thoughts for you too, Ellie Anne

Quakers this morning. Most times, a place of love and peace, sharing, as was today. There will be a small number of us on C mas day, as its a Sunday.

Annie so glad to hear from you. You must have been very frightened. Hope you get the help you badly need very soon. Hope you are on antibiotics for the infection. But while they work their magic they can make you feel low.

As usual you are dealing with lots of pain and inability to move but still thinking for others your heart must be made of gold. 💗💖

Annie What a terrible time you've had. It's lovely to hear from you but I can see why you've not been able to use your IPad. We all thought it would be better for you to have a bed to sleep in but perhaps it takes a while to adjust too. I hope it's not too high and hence the falling from bed. I expect you may have issues with balance too being unable to stand for many months. It must have been so uncomfortable to be laid on the floor so long. Such a bad state of affairs with our ambulance services. A good thing your brother isn't too far away isn't it? He must have been so pleased he could help you.

I hope you can get further help very soon fron Social Services. I'm astonished that you should be on a waiting list at all when you are so needing of help. You must feel pretty awful with an infection too. I hope your medication gets rid of it soon.

You have been much missed. Wishing you back to your usual self. You must miss being able to communicate with your IPad.
Love and hugs xxx

Annie so lovely to hear from you but so sorry things have become so bad. What a nasty fall to have and being stuck there for so long. The ambulance wait was ridiculous. Good thing your DD phoned your brother and he could come round. I’m glad your DD came to see how your are getting on and I do hope the extra help will come soon.
Your poor hands sound so painful. Also the infection too, that is not good, Hope you are getting good care. We all miss you so much. We will do our best to care for each other while you are recovering. Sending you a gentle cwtch and much love xx
HVDY good to know your son is getting well settled in his new home. How are you feeling today?
Wyllow you sound so tired. Things must be wearing you out. Glad you managed to get to Quakers meeting today and found some peace.
Whiff nice of you and Joane to pop in. I think Annie is missed more than she realises.
Sweetpeasue I managed 3 km on my bike last night. I was watching a very absorbing film on my iPad 🤣
How have you been getting on.
Scaredycat hope you got off on holiday ok and you have a good time.
Ellie Anne there doesn’t seem to be anything we can do to help just to be here and listen and give you our companionship. I wish things were better for you.
Other than going out and meeting up with friends I’m not sure what else you can do. Have you been to the sea today?

No doodle I was at church this morning but have been so cold all day and cdnt Face going out. I spoke to my daughter on the phone and shared a bit how I was feeling. I know I shouldn’t but it’s done now. She doesn’t understand and can’t help. I’m going to see my little grandson tomorrow . My son will be at work but d in l is lovely.

HVDY There were lots of fireworks
here but not in the early hours. I hope you managed to get back to sleep and that you have some of your voice back. That Laryngitis seems to keep coming back for you.
Doodle You're well away now. I'm afraid I've not been on bike at all the last couple of days. Finding it difficult at present. Don't think the meds are working and I don't know why. I'll have some catching up to do for sure. 🤔
Wyllow3 I'm glad you had a lovely and peaceful time at your Quaker meeting. I hope you feel less tired tomorrow. The CFS must be so frustrating for you.
EllieAnne I don't think you should worry about telling your daughter. You need someone to talk to and even mums can need a listening ear at times. I dare say she will find it difficult to know what to say that will be of help. Its lovely that you get on well with your DIL though. I hope you have a nice time with your grandson tomorrow.

To all on BD wishing you a good night's rest. X

*Sweetpeasue" understandable you had to give the bike a break.

Ellie Anne I think you did the best thing telling your DD something of it not to pretend. She may take some time taking it in. Glad to hear you and DiL get on and enjoy GS as best you can.

Got a challenge tomorrow. Damp man coming for 1.5 days max hopefully: indoor work I don't really like him a lot/feel too comfy round him but needs must, its a job he discovered (wet rot while doing first part of job).
He's kind of manipulative - too close too home atm, can escape him in the morning but its feeling I can't rest till he's gone.

Doodle hooray for cycling news of last night.

Wyllow3 Glad your Quakers meeting was good. Nice that you can spend time together on Christmas Day.
Doodle I'm feeling much better, thanks. My voice is almost back, just a bit croaky. I just feel tired. I get like this a couple of times a year. You're doing well with your bike.
SweetpeaSue I hope you've feeling a bit better than you were.
EllieAnne It's good that you've got a nice DIL. Have a lovely time with her and your grandson.
Anniebach I hope you manage to have a decent night's sleep, despite your problems.

GD1 has told her dad (Son1) that she wants to live with him. It's only a matter of time, I hope, before that actually happens. Off to bed soon. Love to all on BD x

All the best Annie I am sorry this is happening to you. X

Annie I am so glad you are back but what a time you are having. I hope the bed is comfortable and that you are able to sleep. Xx

Hello everybody - well we got here despite all my fears and worry. I,ve read your posts and feel so privileged to be with you lovely kind ladies. I won’t post this week but know that you are all in my thoughts.
Just to say Annie I,m so sorry that you have had such a dreadful experience and just glad your brother was able to help you. Your daughter must have been so worried. How can an ambulance leave it so long for somebody in your position.I hope your help is soon sorted and your poor body can rest and recover . I,m so sorry I didn’t know the date of Catherine’s anniversary or I would have sent you.the biggest hug . Those Anniversaries are so hard to deal with but suffering as you are now it must have been even harder.Belated giant hugxxxxx
To everyone else I hope this week treats you well and i,ll be thinking of you all. Xxxxxx

Ellie Anne I do hope you got to see your grandson today and had a good time. It’s lovely that you like your DIL so much she sounds very nice. I’m glad you told your DD a bit about how you feel. Although she probably can’t help it might make her more understanding. Are you still feeling cold or a bit better now?
Sweetpeasue I’ll give you a tow on my bike when you’re feeling more like it. Wonder why the meds aren’t helping. That’s a shame. Perhaps your body has got used to them a bit and maybe needs more.
HVDY good you are feeling a bit better. I used to have periods of laryngitis and being really croaky too.
Your son obviously has a good relationship with his girls. Would her mum agree to her living with her dad do you think?
Wyllow hope you are getting on ok with the damp man and not been too uncomfortable with him. I have had a similar thing with some workmen not being happy to have them in the house. Hope you have coped ok.
Scaredycat hurrah for you. So pleased you have overcome your fears to go on holiday. Have a wonderful time. We will be thinking of you too. Looking forward to hearing all about it when you get back.
Annie can’t help thinking of you and your poor padded hands. Don’t like to think of you being alone or in pain. I hope you are coping better with the bed now . We are all thinking of you.
Rafichagran nice of you to pop in too with good wishes for Annie too. Hope you’re ok.
Joce hope you are coping ok and going in nice walks with Coco. Take care all

Scaredycat Didn't expect to hear from you but lovely that you managed. Have a wonderful time. We'll miss you.
Annie I am thinking of you and wish there was something we could do. I hope you're getting used to your bed now after such a bad start, it's bound to have given your confidence a knock. Sending a hug.
Wyllow I can understand that it's daunting to have any workman in the house. I put off all sorts of jobs as I feel uncomfortable with strangers in the home. I hope the job didn't take too long. You'll be relieved to have your home back to yourself.
HVDY Have you got your voice back yet? It's lovely that your DGD wants to be with her dad. I hope everything works out for the best for you all. He must be settling in now and you will have your house back.
Doodle I've had 6 treatments since April. Maybe my immune system isn't good--I don't know, I'm fed up with myself. But--did some pedalling today. Didn't fancy a 'croggy' but thanks for the offer. Another song came to mind with your offer. 'Climb up here, and we'll soon be flying. We can go just as fast with two' (2 Little Boys?) So - - - 🚴. 3 and a quarter kilometres. 😊. Little saddlesore but feeling saintly. Haha.
*EllieAnne Joce*Rafichigran and all on BD hope you're all OK. X

Hi all and xxx

Well done the pedalling Sweetpeasue despite all. I set the alarm wrong (talk about Freudian slip) and workman woke me up by phone at 8.20 to let him in.

I escaped out to the gym and he had finished at lunchtime as less than expected. This set me off on a high and I've not been able to "stop" mode - I've had a difficult call with Ex (will he sign the final document?) I phoned sister to ask something very difficult of her ( was that wise, no) arranged to meet an elderly friend (Quaker) tomorrow who in the past manipulated me then got abusive in a weird letter (but I don't think I will let it happen again so not necessarily bad) so waiting for the crash...its like depression is the norm and almost more comfortable.
(need to vent, please excuse)

Sending thoughts out and will hold you in the light in the night.

( I should add that this down/up reflects my diagnosis, which is bi-polar 2: which is (or was, as am a lot better) long v severe depressions/anxiety and then periods not of mania like the more well known bi-polar 1,
but rushing around too fast and making ill judged decisions until they brought on a crash, also obviously real life triggers affect me more than they might others
so what I describe above is a sort of mini-cycle)

ScaredyCat Good of you to think of everyone. Enjoy your holiday. Do tell us all about it when you get back.
Doodle Yes, the eldest GD especially gets on very well with her dad. Her mother would probably like her to live with him. Her eldest child (not my son's) and the youngest are like her (not necessarily a good thing). I don't know how that would happen, what with school holidays etc. How are you and your DH?
SweetpeaSue How are you feeling? I've got my voice bak but have got a chest cough - I get like this a few times a year. It's nice to have the house to ourselves now.
Wyllow3 Your episodes of being low must be all the more difficult to cope with after periods of feeling on a high. I hope you don't get in a very low mood again soon. Take care.
Anniebach Thinking of you and hoping you're getting some extra help from somewhere.

EllieAnne, Whiff, all on BD - I hope you all manage to have a decent day. x

Have just had a panic attack of hyperventilating. I found out conflicting info again. Letter sent to my GP saying different to what I was told. I will try and calm myself. Getting a copy of letter later from surgery.
Sorry about your feelings too being all over the place right now Wyllow
Hope you feel better soon.
HVDY Hope you have a decent day too.
All on BD x

Sorry. I've not slept and the anxiety is steam rolling ahead. I'll get back later.