I just need a good old grumble really. Got out of home sludge to a cafe.
Nadateturbe it’s because the colonoscopy is for cancer I’m fretting. I don’t normally get thrown by tests. I do have to sort pain relief as had three bowel ops down the tum so loads of adhesions: the consultant warned me: and their normal pain and sedative relief are meds I am already on therefore a bit more will not do the job.
But really it’s part of a. Offer picture: 20 years with mental health, in the early days inpatient and suicide stuff: being alone after abusing marriage and learning how to do that: constant tiredness etc.
Mostly I keep a reasonably even keel relatively as I have lovely blessings in my life like family, my relationship with them is better now than for years enough to live on run a car, quiet house, but my difficulties going outside alone frustrate me on a sunny day.
End of moan, had to get it off chest x
Lasr two letters continued Jan 24
Angela Rayner lashes out and calls Sunak “pint sized loser”.