That poem does reach the heart of what might bring content, however hard to reach. And it tracks the various routes by which in our lives we might have sought a way to “make things OK” in the mental pain.
But I’d say, here, in BD’s, that its often kindness to ourselves that is often hardest to achieve.
Hi HVDY the CT scan will take forever, things are not critical enough bowl wise to fast forward. I’m glad you’ve had that blood test - hope it will turn out to be helpful. Your family news is good - when I think of the terrible troubles not so long ago, things have come a long way and you have had a big part in it. (and you'l get the spare room back for sleeps)
I’m rarely bored. Often very frustrated, but that’s different. either in just coping mode, (or not coping mode which is sort of scary but not boring), or I’m just too interested in politics and some culture and stuff and the world around me or listening to music or just what makes people tick is endlessly interesting. I suppose being bi-polar is part of that: I’m fortunate in having a lot of education (which I’ve not been able to use to have any kind of career at all, or work for many years in my life) but does give me a curious if troubled mind.
I suppose I do a lot of mental pottering!
But yes atm often feel 80 health wise and resent that. I haven’t entirely given up the hope that someone else might appear in my life - that’s a ??? still at 72.
But we are all very different. what works for me won’t work for you Candy, and there is no better or worse way of being life-wise expect to find the best for us as individuals. Your challenge is perhaps how to cope with when active things are not possible?
My goodness Doodle that is so full on! Exhausting! I’m so glad that extensive tests are being done. I’m holding you both in the light that something will come out of the week Cath enables youth to lead a better and more stable life, knowing where you are and what’s needed for MrD to best thrive.
Sweetpeasue I’m so glad you were able to do what you did today. Above all you need to understand, don’t you? What is going on that it can vary so? the fear that it will always be this way is very understandable because of your levels of pain.
It was yet another bad night but I upped and went to the gym so that was enough. I think I accidentally took extra meds as had a good afternoon sleep. Well, it was much needed.
Best wishes to all BD's, posting, and reading xx
. It's mi-brown now, but I might put some blonde highlights in next week. I've bee extremely impressed by the service of this hospital department (and I gave them an excellent online review). 
