I listened to it, nadateturbe, its very powerful, I like “slow, in fact find myself changing the speed on U tube songs (its in the settings) in order for them to be like that.
Great -the hairdresser. Well done you. It’s scary when that first time you realise how vulnerable we can be, as you did when your head was injured. We must take care…sigh. But not the best way of being reminded.
I got the quote “the crack that lets the light get in, from one of the best books I’ve read recently, by the author Louise Penny. It’s set in a little village in Quebec, and the protagonist is a detective whose should is lyrical, forgiving, and also strong, inner strength. The first book in the series is called “Still Life”, and I cannot recommend it more strongly.
“In the Louise Penny series, Chief Inspector Armand Gamache is portrayed as a kind, compassionate, and intelligent police officer with a strong moral compass. He is known for his integrity and his ability to see the good in people, even in difficult situations. The fictional village of Three Pines serves as a backdrop for many of the stories, and it's a place where Gamache often finds himself investigating mysterious deaths, surrounded by a cast of interesting and complex characters.(One is an eccentric, poet, and older woman, who writes heart searching stuff.)
Good always prevails even in dire circumstances.
HVDY, that sounds like a great way to spend a lovely day like today - sunny’ hot, but not too hot - legs up now 
Allsorts, I use Dylon products, all available on Amazon.
You start by using “Dygon”, which strips the colour from cottons. (Viscose will dye too, and polycottons take some if the dye by not all.)
Once you have used the Dygon, then it’s time to use the very handy Dylon pods. All you have to do is pop your wet clothes in the washing machine, and peel the top off the pod, and put the whole pod in the machine. There are instructions as regards the temperature, which cycle to use, and so on on both Dygon and Dylon. I’d be interested to know how you got on if you give it a try.
Please come in here and chat when you like, there are willing ears.
Yes - I definitely slow down in the heat, which of course is very good for me.
I’m so glad to see you in, Scaredycat. I can appreciate you really don’t want to over heat, your tolerance is clearly lower because of the AF. That was a horrible scare, at A and E - has it set your confidence back?
Thoughtful words for Sweetpeasue.
I hoped you enjoyed the hairdresser. I’m growing my hair presently but oh I have great natters with my hairdresser, known her for years and years. Do you?
Yes, my new ears are wonderful. No more twisting and turning and as for music - well, “its my everything”.
I find green spaces very calming too, Ellie Anne. In fact, when I try to calm myself I have 3 different ones that I visualise - by a river, the moors on a sunny day, and a beach. That photo says it all.
After the long and so loving marriage, Doodle, it is no surprise you continue to mourn. Of course you feel as you do. You had something quite rare. As you say, others go through it, it can be helpful to know what you are feeling is normal. Yes, little things have become more enjoyable, but very very slowly. The waterfront location of your outing seems a lovely place to spend the day, just observing is enough.
Sweetpeasue, it would seem that you think, on reflection, the Subclavian Steal diagnosis is particularly important, maybe try going with that. Am I right thinking you look at lot of things up? It’s good to be informed, but I wonder sometimes if you do a little too much? But you must follow your intuition as to whats right for you as regards that. Try not to worry about the “someone” - proceed anyway with whom you feel is best to see. Ooo, I bet DH looks spiffing in his new jacket. Nice bargain there.
No, the GP will not speak to you about your husband, but what you can do, and I have done this, is write about your concerns (email?). You dont say “what I think the diagnosis is”, you write
“I am very worried because”.
It is then in their hands. Put it for the attention of your “Best” GP. I highly recommend this for you to get out the anxiety and the GP can decide what to to.
Of course you fear losing him, and that you couldn’t live without him, so try and put it to rest as much as you can.
I’ve been dreaming about the seaside. It was on a super old Agatha Christie film I’m watching in bits (“the body in the Library”) I’m going to to book myself into a hotel that I know very well on the N Yorks coast sometime, not ready for it now but in a few months I will be, I’ve stayed alone twice before.
Had to smile at the runs as it happens all the time. I plan for it as regards taking movicol - ie not before I go out, and know where to toilets are. But the places I go to all have them, and if they dont, when I get out into the countryside, I’m not averse to using a secluded spot.
Today I had an excellent session with my CPN. I had carefully summarised in just 4 well spaced A4 pages bits of my much longer diary that the psychologist reads, which meant we had a basis for discussion.
My mind is both a wondrous place, I can drop into momentary despair, but talk myself out of it: I get tied up with minute details on the one hand: and big grandiose ideas on the other.
It’s just exhausting and very hard work, self watching all the time.
But I went to the gym ,and all changes, and I am so thankful for nearly 50 years of yoga now. Most of the time I am just so happy to feel alive again; some problems crop up as in this condition I find it very hard to eat, but have lots of tempting bits and bobs in the fridge and freezer.
Very tired now. I’ll post my Tube later, I have one in mind. xx
. Saturday evening too, this week. We love having her, of course, but it's tiring.