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Scaredycat Wed 08-Jul-26 15:53:35

Welcome. This thread is in support of those who wish to share their mental health problems as they affect their daily lives,share aspects of our lives supportively and give and take support. And is a continuation of Black Dog 29.
It’s been going for some time, so this is a jump in at the deep end.
All are welcome- don’t be put off by some of us being here long term - people come and go

Wyllow3 Thu 16-Jul-26 21:34:04

I did like the “Cat and Fan” photo, Scaredycat. Simple pleasures. What colour did you choose for their nails? 😉
That kindness at your darkest hour - I’m glad it is lodged in your memory. It’s much more talked of now, thank goodness, imagine the days when it was seen as shame.

Hello nanny2507, how nice to see you. Well, I say well done for realising it wasnt the right choice and getting the courage to move again x
3 cats? I bet they all have different characters.

I agree with you HVDY. You have your clutch of those wanting and needing you, and you cannot work wonders, and seeing him as you do is definitely good enough.
Jaffa has the right idea, out into the fresh early air, then a long nap. Were there any activities today at the centre?

Just hoping EllieAnne that the hymn singing event lifts your spirits a little. I sing along to some music on the radio and am looking for a teacher, I am so very rusty. What Scaredycat said better than I can.

Hey well done there Sweetpeasue for doing the other side! I hope you are both OK afterwards. I am glad to hear that DH finds the ibuprofen helpful. Good insisting, there!

I “hear you” and understand how you feel about going down a road (MH person help) that you have gone down before. It sounds like you have some good tools for self-understanding and as you say it’s putting them into practice.
Oh I do hate those photos, they always turn out grim. I look like a prison officer on mine (and kept the old one). Yes DH is right re black and white and of course they are tiny on the licence.

So are you having a change in vicar, Doodle? Uncertainty there. But they will inherit a really good situation, from all you have written. Yes, ‘walking the in steps” rings a bell with me too. One imagines the monks at work, the hundreds of years of births, marriages, deaths, the patience building, the old days of painted lovely interiors that Henry 8th did away with….there is an old abbey near me, 13th C, and a chunk of it (the sort of church bit) still in use for services sometimes. I really must go. The grounds retain the foundations and there’s a guide to what was where. Henry 8th “dissolved” it and it went to a rich landowner.

It was a tough time with friend today. She wanted to go to a cafe she had heard of, and it wasn’t very nice. There was also what I knew would be tough - she shared some very sad bits/background. I’m glad I know, but the place just happened to have echoes for me. I wont tell her that, but make sure next week we go somewhere with more lovely High Peak to see.
Then I went to the gym, very tired but did some: and went an left my mobile there, but didn’t find out for sure it was there for some time. (Its is)
My landline packed up, and I had to ask my sister (via whatsApp on the computer) to ring them then ring me. Duh. 🙄
Nice, short, grounding Q Zoom. Made up for not being at the little group but no way face D!

It was tougher today but I often get a difficult day following a good one: now listening to music on R3 Unwind which is unpredictable but at its best works well for me as companion.

nanny2507 Thu 16-Jul-26 22:01:13

Hi doodle My son took binks when he moved out as he was so bonded with a cat that is his. Although it broke my heart I had to do what was right for binks. I see him when I visit and he's like a velcro cat while im there grin 2 of the 3 cats get along really well. My OG cat is the odd one out he doesnt like the other 2, but they just bumble along. The area here is just too busy. I moved to a fairly new estate from a very rural area to future proof my health and old age and I hate it. I am looking for more rural, but not completely cut off, areas.

nanny2507 Thu 16-Jul-26 22:04:05

Hi willow Yes all different! 1 taps me very gently in the morning to wake me up, one claws my face to wake me up and 1 just sits on my hip in bed at night! How is love them though

nanny2507 Thu 16-Jul-26 22:07:26

Hi sweet I love my cats very much. I love having a cuddle. 1 is a rescue kitten and was sadly taken away from mum far too early. He loves to snuggle on my dressing gown. He suckles it and pads his little paws. He cries until I put it on so he can snuggle but it's been too hot.

Wyllow3 Thu 16-Jul-26 22:31:39

Lots of snuggles there, nanny2507. What characters!
Yes, you do right to seek the right compromise (more quiet, but still with access to whats needful). May you find your "you" home as soon as you can.

Actually, I dont now where you are, but there are some nice older 1930's or 1960's suburbs - like mine - really really quiet, but bits of them are near whats needed. Just be careful there is not loads and loads of work needed doing on the house you buy.

Sweetpeasue Fri 17-Jul-26 15:42:02

Nanny2507 Aw ,sounds like the rescue kitten has found her new mum. Those cuddles are precious arent they. I dont have a cat but love cuddles from my sons little dog. Do hope you find somewhere you like soon - no good stopping there if its not for you.

Scaredycat Fri 17-Jul-26 17:06:05

Hi all
Nanny2507- So good to see you again. What a shame your move has turned out not to be the right place for you. You,re brave to to decide to move again but you need to feel ‘at home’
next time. Perhaps a small,older place in a large village would be better. Just make sure all vital amenities are easily accessible.
In the meantime you have your lovely furry family.Cats bring such joy and unconditional love- they are lucky to have you too.We adopted 2 rescue cats last year and love them more than I can say.
Wyllow- glad you liked the photo- maybe nail polish next time!
Walking in the steps of the past inhabitants etc is the perfect phrase for being in ancient buildings. Some are so affecting it feels like they are looking at us too.
You dealt well with your friend and the feelings invoked on your drive. Yes next time visit the lovely peaceful places and maybe find a nice pub.
Those thieving gremlins are at it again- you are good at outwitting them though!!
HVDY- you do all you can for your brother - but he must also help himself. Your life is precious and you are not at all at fault for wanting to live it your way and enjoy it.
You describe Sheringham as I feel- just like England as it used to be as is a lot of Norfolk. It’s my home county.
You do get good meals at your day centre- your DH sounds like he enjoys the sort of food mine does.
Have a lovely time in my lovely county.
SweetPeaSue- I,m glad you feel able to ask for help if needed- the thought of being as we were is always in the background when we get low.
Oh those ID photos . I look like a ‘Wanted’ poster on my driving licence and passport!! A miserable old bat!!
Doodle- It must be daunting for a new Vicar to start with a new congregation. I,m sure that he or she will be given a very warm welcome from your lovely Church.
Maybe you have put on a bit of weight but it’s better than being like a stick insect!! I weigh the same as I did 40 years ago but have lots of wobbly bits now I,m older. When I got ill a few years ago I was 7 and a half stone- that’s not nice either😀
So nice that you and your friend laugh a lot- that is treasure indeed.
Today my friend has had an appointment with her consultant - a crucial one and she was so apprehensive. Wish I could wave a magic wand. Still no message from her.

Love to all mentioned and everyone else who needs a kind word

Scaredycat Fri 17-Jul-26 17:07:59

EllieAnne- thinking of youxx

Doodle Fri 17-Jul-26 19:08:54

Wyllow it often happens like that a good day being followed by one where you feel down. Sorry the cafe wasn’t too good. Your choice next time to pick somewhere better.
Yes I love the remains of castles especially in out of the way places although Corfe Castle is a favorite. Beautiful place.
Our new vicar was apparently approved by all on the interview panel and I have been told that they think he/she will fit in well with our church. I hope so because it is a really special environment.
Nanny I can imagine it must be hard to move to a new estate when you’re used to something more open. Hope you find the right place for you. How is your little grandson? Do you see much of him?
Scaredycat we are looking forward to having a vicar again although the team has done a wonderful job of looking after us during the interregnum. We have continued all our usual services and not lost any of the congregation which is good. We have such lovely people here I’m sure who ever it is will fit in.
I’ve put in a lot of weight and I can feel it. I need to lose some for my knees and general health. I have never weighed so much. I think a couple of years of inactivity have led me to this now I’m to tired and too out of condition to do much about it other than diet.
Sweetpeasue I bet you love having a cuddle with Fluffball. I do the same when I visit our son’s dogs. Mind you, when a German shepherd sits in your lap you know it 🤣🤣

Doodle Fri 17-Jul-26 19:11:11

HVdY you do all you can for your brother. He doesn’t help himself. Hope you’ve had a good day. Have you plans for the weekend. I’m going to an outdoor amphitheater to hear some choirs singing, hope it’s not too hot,
Ellie Anne I hope you have a better weekend
Are you seeing your grandchildren?

nanny2507 Fri 17-Jul-26 20:15:10

Ah doodle my grandson is gorgeous! I adore him. I see him about once a month. I am looking to move closer to my DS now. I moved closer to my DD this time but it's just not the right fit.

Wyllow3 Fri 17-Jul-26 20:41:13

Oh I recall bits of Norfolk and Suffolk Scardeycat as sis used to live there, way back in 1970’s went there with friend, and so on. Like time had stopped. Different under the surface, of course, as the fields would have been full of labourers before farm machines came along.

I do hope you hear from your friend soon and can report back here.

Yes Doodle it is a special church. And it’s looking good from all reports too about a newbie - a happy place to come and work in, there will always be problems but well…they are fortunate.
It is a big struggle with your weight as you are starting from such a tough place - weight makes knees harder to work well with O/A, and then of course you want good knees to exercise… and its hard to get the ommmph up if sad and low - all the best with dieting.

So glad to hear about your lovely grandson, nanny2507, and it sounds a wise move DS wise. You are right - one cant have “a fit” just by wishing it. Seeing your DGS a bit more often is always a boost.

Well my day started well as my cleaner came and it was s mince to see her and catch up and all nice being done as I was very, very tired.

I didn’t have to rush and got to see Ex1 - whom I get on with s much now, he’s DS’s dad of course and comes over for several reasons monthly - walk and chat in the Botanical Gardens - warm but not too hot, everything looking lovely and the shush shush of trees in breeze.

....but a prescription had come through on my mobile which delighted me because my nose does have an infection and its a possibility that treatment may help blepharitis so got all excited. ....

But by the time I had gone to or phoned several chemists I found out that the drug is not available from the supplier never mind the chemists.

Quote last chemist

" I wish they'd b** stop prescribing a drug no one can get. There are alternatives of course and my research and chats with chemists I learned a lot. but not till GP on Monday. So got overtired.

So to receive the tedium I went into a charity shop and snaffled a really peacers-type skirt …

Now…don’t laugh

I left my keys in the changing rooms of a charity shop.

Briefly.
Decided it was well time to head home.

(I’ve been watching the DVD I got of a much loved film Amélie from 2002 it’s delightful but not everyone’s taste. French with STitles and there is a Q Zoom later.

Not sure what my underlying mood is..no doubt it will emerge. Thank goodness its a clear day tomorrow.

Wyllow3 Fri 17-Jul-26 20:43:09

Ah..."peacers" is a name I use elsewhere - duh...I am Wyllow. I think, anyway.

Sweetpeasue Fri 17-Jul-26 20:58:02

Had a tiring day so just quick one. Both really feeling it from gardening yesterday.
Doodle German Shepherd on your lap - no wonder you have bad knees!
Wyllow ( trying not to laugh at keys 🤭) Love to know what a Wyllow's/Peacer's skirt looks like.
Scaredycat You are certainly NOT a 'miserable old bat'.
Love to all and wishing a peaceful night.

Sweetpeasue Fri 17-Jul-26 21:04:26

*HVDY Those photos booths are dire arent they. Thank goodness the photo will end up ( according to one of us here) tiny.
EllieAnne Hope the hymn concert was enjoyable.
Nanny2507 So glad you can see your little grandson regularly. He must be around 1 now is he?

EllieAnne Fri 17-Jul-26 21:58:05

I’m babysitting dgs tonight and he’s been really good. I’ve managed to get him to bed. He behaves better for me when mum and dad are not here.His mum and dad are at a family wedding celebration so none of them can babysit. I’m happy to help but not looking forward to the hours drive home at midnight.

Wyllow3 Fri 17-Jul-26 22:22:16

What, a miserable old bat, no way.

Its not surprising that you are both tired after the last two days, Sweetpeasue.

Hey, well done you, EllieAnne. ☺️
No, the drive that late won't be fun. Take care now.

Wyllow3 Fri 17-Jul-26 22:24:27

skirt.

Wyllow3 Fri 17-Jul-26 22:25:29

I think there is a key virus going round. (aka, not anything to do with being forgetful)

Sweetpeasue Fri 17-Jul-26 22:52:18

Wyllow Thanks for that skirt pic.
Wow! So colourful and beautiful design.
Its a real ' one off'. So joyful. Beautiful.

Wyllow3 Fri 17-Jul-26 23:06:43

Like a watercolour with ink drawing, and elastic waist. A £6 find!

Watch out for the key virus Sweetpeasue 😬

Wyllow3 Sat 18-Jul-26 12:21:59

Decided on a home day, after that week it's hanging around time and actually getting an afternoon snooze and catching up with bits and bobs.
Key virus free.

Sweetpeasue Sat 18-Jul-26 15:15:19

Ive not caught it so far but am keeping a look out * Wyllow*

Doodle Sat 18-Jul-26 19:23:27

Nanny so pleased you get to see your lovely grandson. Hope you’ll see more of him if you can move closer.
Ellie Anne so pleased your DGS is being a good boy. Could you not stay the night and travel home in the morning.?
Wyllow pleased you had a good meet up with Ex1. Nice you can chat. The botanical gardens sounds a lovely place to meet.
Love that skirt. What a find.
Sweetpeasue hope your day was ok even if tiring. German shepherd is so lovely but huge. I can only move if she lets me.
HVDY hope you’re ok. Have you had a busy day.
I’ve been to the hospice for some quiet time . Our 56 wedding Anniversary today, such a peaceful place to sit and have a chat with Dh.
Have a good weekend all. Church for me in the morning. On coffee rota.

Sweetpeasue Sat 18-Jul-26 20:02:09

Doodle Its good to hear youve had a quiet time at the hospice to remember wedding anniversary and talk to your DH. and so pleased your DH was able to go there for his last days. Its made such a difference having somewhere special to go to. A special hug today , coming your way. X
Yes, tiring day though mostly because of me worrying about some family arrangements that Ive no control of anyway.
Love to all and hoping everyone has had a reasonable day. X