We have been married 61 years, with all the joys and troubles shared. I have no idea how I would manage if I did not have the other half to look after, and look after me, and I worry how he will cope without me to tell him what to do and when! We talk about this, and his usual reply is that we cannot do anything about it NOW so let's enjoy what we have. My condolences to you almin, I cannot imagine how lonely you must feel at the moment, but hope that you have good memories of a life well lived and shared, and perhaps you could talk to us about them.