Widowhood.

I've managed to find couple more pics of the place in Question and put on my profile

1st pic is the Toll where you may to go round the Great Orme (I think you can walk round it)

3rd pic is my brother , myself and my mum strolling along Llandudno prom, quite a few yrs ago

4th pic is the little church half way up the Great Orme. unfortunately you can't zoom in on the GN photos, put just to the right through the gates, are some white stone graves, right at the front is a stone shaped like car wheel, with wings attached, this is the grave of the First Lady to drive an automobile up the Great Orme .I was told this by the man who used to be the stone mason for the church (that was a strange experience in itself) as I had spoke to him, I turned around and he had gone! no idea where.

Aw bikergran I've just been looking at your photos. I was tearful as I looked at your DHs silver medal for his chrysants. They must have been beautiful and I'll bet he was very proud of them. (rightly so). Llandudno holds so many memories for us both.

nannieroz - you did the photos!! they're lovely. I've got the Tablet from Amazon but at the moment I can't figure out how to turn it on or charge it but I'll take my time.

Bikergran - love the photos as well. Was there a logical explanation for the drawing in the end?

etheltbags - You must have been widowed at a young age.I hope the Cancer treatment is going OK for you. I find the weekends very lonely but I'm trying to be independent and don't want to keep asking my sons to call in. My widowed mum was very needy for over 40 years and I don't want to repeat the pattern.

I've added a photo of me dancing at my son's wedding. I was about 64 at the time and he was dancing so fast I was terrified I would fall down and break a hip.

Great photo Falcon.I hope you are feeling OK today.

Morning all, on my way round to DDs house (painting)
nannieroz it's good to have picys on profile isn't it, it makes you feel a bit more like you know the person, yes we have 5 Silver medals, he was very proud of them, he sued to grow the BIG Chrysanths the big round ones, you will have seen them I'm sure, going to give GS one of the medals once his bedroom been done and sorted in new hosue and he has a shelf up for special things.

Falcon yes there was an explanation for the picture st**id me!
(see "do you believe in angels thread)
enjoy your tablet , if you still have your other comp, then just Google anything you want to know about your tablet(switching on etc etc charging) which I think is prob the first thing to do, I haven't got one so not much help soz.

off to have a peep at your photo now

ahaaaa we have a "groovy" Falconbird if we ever do get to our special place we must find somewhere that has entertainment on, I'm sure Falconbird will be first on the dance floor showing us her moves (in her nightie of course) lovely pic

I used to go Linedancing, hoping to get back to it soon. bfn

Thanks Greenfinch - not too bad. The diazapam withdrawal is a bit tough today but I'm riding it out. Hope you're OK.

Hi All........ Just popped in to say I'm running a bit behind today but hope everyone is well. Falconbird, it must be difficult without the diazepam so keep up the good work. Hope you are enjoying your Tablet. Bikergran's advice about using your other computer to solve problems with your Tablet is spot on. I do it all the time. Love your photos!
Bikergran.......... take it easy for a bit.

Hi Biker and Nannieroz I've managed to find the right place for the charger and the Tablet is charging up at the moment. It's amazing what we can do when we have to I used to be woman who was hopeless at anything technical.

Falconbird, looking forward to your postings from your new Tablet. Hope you enjoy it as much as I do mine. I guess we just have to get used to doing things for ourselves now. I'm hopeless at all the things DH used to do. I miss him so much!

Good luck with your new fangled gadgets everyone, just persevere and ask for help if needed, would love a tablet, but then I would sit in bed rambling on GN all night ! I can sit in bed with the laptop, but not quite the same as a neat little tablet.......bfn everyone zzzzzzzzzzz

Hi Biker and Nannie - glad you liked my angels post. It was a strange encounter because it's so unlikely that a group of young chaps would be walking about looking for someone to give a bunch of flowers to. The flowers were small tiger lilies, not the big white ones. (Love tiger lilies).

I'm doing great with the Tablet - it's connected and working - way to go yet. My DH would have been impressed and amazed because he was the IT guy.

Love the new bunnie icons.

Good morning All...... for some reason I had difficulty signing in this morning. Think my Tablet was throwing a wobbly. It's probably tired as it's never been used so much since I joined GNet.

Hope you all have a nice Tuesday.

I like the bunnies too

Has anyone heard how sewsilver's finger is? I can't remember seeing any postings from her since she told us about her accident with the gate.

No I haven't heard anything. It must be difficult hurting yourself when you're on your own. I have a few friends who are widowed and divorced and have learned to manage very well - but I do worry about things like that.

Falcon I have just popped on and read "what you have achieved" on another thread,since your dear DH passed away, wow! girl! you really should be proud of yourself and so should all your family! as for being treat like an old bat (sorry) I think it is a youngsters thing, they think as we are of an age where our brain cells and achievements have diminished, and sometimes (although not over the last 10 mnths) DDs have made odd little remarks (like say, if I have told them something twice and repeated myself) I am on my way to being ga ga lol..all I can say is onwards and upwards (just wait until they hear your off to Llandudno in your night attire)!!! they will think you are well and truly on your way then lol lol.....

Hiya Biker - I wondered how you were?

Nice to be in touch again. My kids say things like you mention above and it does annoy me but it is a generation thing. I also think they feel indebted to me and that's not a good feeling for them.

My middle son offered to do my coat up for me the other day because I was struggling with the zip. I declined nicely saying maybe in ten years time] I think they're struggling to know how to be around me and I'm the same around them.

Hope you're feeling OK these days?

I think you are both doing really well biker and Falcon! Adjusting to a life alone must be so hard and you both sound so positive and forward looking and I admire that. GN is great for sharing and support so at least you can let off steam about the insensitive remarks from offspring.

I think our children are so used to seeing us as "Mum" who has always nurtured them, copes and gets on with things that they don't realise we need nurturing too!

KBO as Churchill said - and give yourselves a pat on the back if you don't get one elsewhere.

Morning Falcon yes I am ok thanks just flagging at the mo after 3 weeks of solid painting getting DDs house ready, they are both at work all day and I am here sat on my !!!! so it has kept me really busy,and have just flopped into bed at night, I must admit I think the way to move forward slightly if that is the right word, is to keep busy, although DH is on my mind 24/7 as with others, keeping busy sort of gets me through the day, but! I still have many days that if I stop and sit down then it all starts again, I had melt down last Friday all because of a piece of carpet!! it seems at the moment I am trying to block everything out rather than trying to cherish the happy times, as if I think of them it makes me cry, I find myself trying not to talk about DH and his photograph will be going away again as it's too painful to keep looking at it, (I got it out when it was his birthday on 18 March and bought a card and flowers, Iv just thrown the flowers away , they were beautiful cream roses and seem to last forever. Its a bit like I am trying to pretend it never happened and he is still here somewhere, I don't know where.

Come the summer months I spend less time on the comp but will still be around to keep in touch with all my GN friends ok well best go and dismantle this wardrobe.......phewwww...bfn

Gagagran thankyou and yes I suppose we all do sound positive at times, Im sure many of us sit at our comps/ipads writing on GN with tears streaming down our faces, but I think what we try to do is try and sound /be positive to support others,and I am going to buy one of thos big foam hands(like they have at football matches) and use it to pat myself on the back lol.. take care all

Hello everybody,I was touched to see that that you had been concerned about me disappearing after my painful finger, it's nice to know I was missed. My finger ended up being so painful that I haven't been able to use my iPad as I seem capable of typing only with that finger. It's recovering now and as you can see I'm back functioning.it ended up being a whole performance with tetanus injections antibiotics and dressings. It does so feel quite scary to deal with on your own.
Biker , nannieroz and Falconbird ,I'm impressed by what all of you are doing! I'm still struggling massively with builders but hoping that about a month from now I can go and live in my own home.it has been truly horrible living in so many different housesthis year and I realise that making a move and doing the house up at this stage was not wise.

Hi sewsilver so nice to see you back and that all is well. I'm not at home at present so postings are a little short and sweet (I hope!)

falconbird and bikergran...... keep up the good work.

Good to see you back on GN sewsilver the thread had gone a little quite lately, think we must all be busy or pre occupied or hampered as with you...hope your recovery is back up to speed asap. bfn take care all goodnight

Hi Biker, everything you are feeling sounds normal - really awful but normal.

I've had a set back because I was determined to stop taking Diazapam. It's been 8 weeks now and I'm struggling on some days but mostly moving forward. Had an episode of crying last week. I couldn't stop but I think it was natural and normal. Hadn't cried much over the past two years.

I want one of those big foam hands as well.

My kids seem to think I'm some sort of super woman and they get all shifty and nervous if I say I'm sad or struggling.

Sewsilver - good luck with the house and glad your finger is on the mend. I think you're doing great with all the moving. I had to move house twice in 8 months and that was bad enough.

Nannie - I think you've been away - that's really good - let us know how you got on.

Hi falconbird. Yes I'm back home now. Spending time with siblings and their (grown up) children is such a tonic, but I am back in the real world now. I have such a lot to do I feel overwhelmed and don't know where to start.

How are you getting on with your tablet?

I hope you are over the worst re the diazepam. Even the simplest of things seems mammoth when you have to deal with it entirely on your own.

for you.