I've always been very interested, since I was a small child. Initially I always believed it was there and didn't question it, but as you get older you start to question what is real and what isn't. I actually saw a full on ghost when I was 11 and it scared the life out of me. I can still see it in my mind today, as clear as anything. It was a strange experience and it happened in my bedroom, which I moved out of immediately and never slept alone in there again! But there was no interaction, no noise, it didn't look at me, just stared straight ahead, in my general direction. I know for certain I saw a ghost, but I don't know that this ghost was proof of life after death or whether it was something else, a memory left in the building for example. When my relatives have died, I have been left questioning the existence of an afterlife, as I have not had any signs from them, which I'm sure I would have had if it were all real. I have been to Spiritualist churches and never been picked, but have listened to the readings for others that have been and thought they were complete rubbish! A life after this one is the only thing that makes sense to me. We are way too complex to just cease to exist after death, but I can't find any proof that this is the case, which terrifies me!