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Overwhelmed or being a drama queen

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Droopdrawers Mon 10-Jan-22 12:26:48

Husband died a year ago. Have 3 adult children under 25. All devastated. 2 DDs already had mental health issues. Youngest DD doing a masters and struggling. Had a meltdown/ self harm yesterday. Other daughter has had to have a colposcopy because of 2 dodgy smear tests. She has just been referred to consultant because of blood in poo. I am sick with worry. I reassure her and tell her it will be nothing serious. But I am terrified that it is serious. I’m haven’t slept for days. I am terrified that I will lose them to cancer or suicide. I also feel so sad that my life is permanently on hold. I looked after my husband through his illness, supported kids through uni and with mental health. It just feels like it will never end. There is always going to be something. Then I feel awful that I feel like this and could lose them. Am I being ridiculous?

V3ra Wed 12-Jan-22 23:17:44

Whenever I've had a "big worry," I've found referring it to a professional made it their responsibility, not mine, and made it easier to live with.

Droopdrawers you are anything but a drama queen xx

Pepper59 Thu 13-Jan-22 10:36:34

The other good people on here have offered good advice. A year is not long bereaved and I definitely think you need someone to talk to. Im so sorry you are going through all this, it's an awful lot.

Pammie1 Mon 17-Jan-22 08:18:58

Shandy57

Droopdrawers, depending on your age, you might also like to join the WAY UP on line site for widows.

They have been a great support to me in every way, they also have a facebook page.

I turned to Wayup after my husband died. I found it hugely supportive and still keep in touch with several local members. The people are at various stages after their bereavements and have a wealth of experience and advice, which they are always willing to share. In your quieter moments it can be really calming to be among people who know exactly what you’re going through and you can say what’s on your mind, safe in the knowledge that you won’t be ridiculed or criticised. Please do give it a go.

You have so much on your shoulders at the moment - you’re still very early on in the grieving process and you have to deal with everything else being thrown at you while you’re trying to cope with the huge change in your life. Glad you have reached out for help from your GP - medication takes a while to start working but hang in there because it really helps, as does talking therapy . I had a ten week session after I lost my husband and it helped me sort out and come to terms with quite a few issues. I wish you well and I’m sure everyone here has their fingers crossed that you and your children will come through this difficult time and that that things will get better for you all. ?

Dickens Mon 17-Jan-22 08:38:42

Pammie1

Lovely, supportive post.