Happy with your lot?

Narnia, I just wanted to say, well done for reaching out on here, about how you are feeling - that’s step 1.
I am sure others will come along with fellow-feeling and helpful suggestions.
Have you had any counselling or ‘talking therapy’? It sounds as though you have a lot to deal with on top of your own health problems.
Also, an exercise class appropriate for your health condition, might give you a boost - I’m thinking chair yoga or other gentle or seated exercise.
In the meantime, know that there are many lovely, caring people on here who will want to offer their support.

I’m 67, poor health, bad mobility, but luckily retired.

I cared for both my dear parents, whom I sadly miss.

Things will improve. Please see your GP and see if he can help with your feelings, you may have depression or anxiety or both.

Do make time for yourself, and fresh air and walking is great for clearing your mind.

Join a gym or a club or find a hobby, something you’d really enjoy and maybe something new.

Good luck

PS if caring for your parents and Grandchildren is too much, try and chat to your relatives about help.

Narnia please see your GP .
I too am feeling a bit low, for different reasons. I am older than you, done my share of baby-sitting, still do actually, but family dynamics are getting me down.
My consolation, for us both, is ………..this too shall pass

I am sorry you feel like this, narnia, and I wish I could help.

My suggestions are practical - please check that all your parents (and you, of course) are receiving all the benefits to which they are entitled. They might easily qualify for Attendance Allowance which is not means tested. That way you may be able to buy in help to care for them.

AgeUk will offer you advice on all practical things.

Thank you all 💐
Mobility is very limited, so walking is restricted.
I feel like i should be doing more with my days when i don't have the children, but on those days I'm shattered!
I do like a crime series, so will often watch those. I do read.
We don't particularly have money worries but feel my other half can take the shine off things by moaning about costs etc. As i said we just went away but he moaned about the cost of lunches, evening meals etc it's not something we do regularly as we don't go out at home.