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Not sure how I feel yet.

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phoenix Sun 12-Feb-17 04:03:46

Had a phone call from DIL at half past midnight to say that my mother has died. She (my mother) stopped speaking to me some years ago, heaven knows why, I ran myself ragged looking after things when my stepfather was ill and after he died.

I tried to find out what the problem was, but phone calls resulted in her hanging up on me, an unexpected encounter in Waitrose was unbelievably awful, made me wish I had just stayed hiding behind the yoghurt section instead of approaching her.

Now of course I will never be able to sort things out.

I was so proud of her, she was an unmarried mother in 1958, in a small community. She was sent away for the birth, I was supposed to be adopted, but she decided to keep me, despite my having a cleft palate and being difficult to feed.

Perhaps one day I will try to tell the whole story, or at least as much of it as I know, but for now I must admit to feeling somewhat out of kilter, hence still being up at 4am.

Maimeo Mon 13-Feb-17 23:41:25

So sorry for your loss, Phoenix, I hope time helps you to come to terms with your unresolved relationship with your motherflowers

phoenix Thu 16-Feb-17 00:28:07

sorry for the delay, have just got back to this thread.

Many thanks for all the supportive posts, and every good wish to those who have posted about similar situations.

callgirl1 Wed 22-Feb-17 17:53:34

I`m so sorry Phoenix, I haven`t visited this section for a while. My deepest sympathies on the loss of your mother. Take good care of yourself.

jenn Thu 23-Feb-17 17:34:26

Be kind to yourself

Scooter58 Thu 23-Feb-17 18:27:58

flowers Phoenix,and also for you HG15 on the loss of your husband,cherish the good times as my Nana used to say .

Charleygirl Thu 23-Feb-17 18:36:32

So sorry phoenix I totally missed the thread. I hope that Mr.P is looking after Please look after yourself, life is not easy.

downtoearth Thu 23-Feb-17 19:29:42

Have just seen this thread and send my sympathies on the loss of your mum,I am another who had a difficult relationship with my mum,and a sadness that things where not different flowers

Backsup1 Wed 17-May-17 13:56:32

So sorry for you that you never got to say good-bye but she knows and watches down on you from above

phoenix Wed 17-May-17 14:58:16

I sincerely hope not.