luckyrose62 you really do have my sympathy. No one can know the complexities of others lives and we do not know what we will cope with and what we will find difficult.
My mother had her 97th birthday on Tuesday, has Alzheimer's, has been blind in one eye for years and has now nearly lost the sight in the other and also has mobility problems - oh and she's deaf too. I do not say this for sympathy but to tell you that I had to give myself a talking to the other day. These things have, as they do, all got worse gradually and I have got older too.
Last week she lost the hearing aid from the better ear and blocked her kitchen sink. It wasn't her fault but not having things fixed instantly makes her anxious which triggers a fairly high level of anxiety in me. I was rushing round trying to contact the insurers for her hearing aid and unblock the sink. That was when I stopped and talked to myself. Mum has insurance in place for the unblocking of sinks - why was I trying to do it myself? We got that sorted and it triggered me to ring the local authority to ask for a sensory assessment as it is the blindness together with the Alzheimer's that is causing the upsurge in the problems.
I wonder if it is time for you to call on some outside assessment and help. I am always amazed at the simple things that make life easier - although that doesn't stop me wishing there was more actual help available so I could just love my mum.
Also, have you had your own health checked. I put things down to the stress of caring which turned out to be minor enough to be able to be improved fairly easily - but it has made a tremendous difference. For example, my GP and I agreed that I was suffering from anxiety - not surprising in the circumstances but, just to cross all the 't's, etc., he sent off a blood test. It turned out I have low thyroid. No wonder I was always cripplingly tired! Tablets and time to adjust and I am better able to cope (some of the time).
I don't know if this will help but I hope writing on GN does. I think it makes us feel less alone on what can be a bit of a lonely path.