Only just found this thread; good one, well done Peonyrose - one of my favourite flowers! On page one, will make a coffee & come back to read rest.
Mine was youngest daughter of 3 C. 8 years estranged, 9 Xmases. I adored her & her 2 C. No argument, no bad words, nothing, save the jealousy of her H, I realised after the co [not my precious GD dad]
6.5yrs of that dark endless tunnel Smileless so aptly put. Until I decided no more & finally moved on. But I recently thought to myself, what's wrong with me, I'm not ill, but I don't feel right and then I realised, I've moved on but my broken heart is heavy in my chest!