Good Morning Everyone.
Now that we have got Christmas behind us I hope you are all feeling a little better. It's an emotional time, and I too have struggled. Have felt quite unwell at times but hopefully I'm picking up now and on an upward trajectory.
I am done with sadness, grief and sorrow. From now on I choose happiness.
Still haven't heard from my DIL since Christmas Day. I did text my son, just a brief update, kept it light and breezy and SHORT?. Received a nice friendly text back. I'm happy enough with that. At least it means the communication channels are open.
I am not holding my breath for regular visits, in fact I think keeping a distance, allowing space and time is probably my best way forward, so I am playing it very cool. Hopefully absence will make their hearts grow fonder, although I'm not very hopeful that DILs heart will warm towards me. I have given up on that score.
At any rate I will not be so readily available in future, nor will I change my plans merely to accommodate them should they condescend to grace me with their presence on a last minute whim,
I did that in the past, I would cancel plans and rearrange my own life because I was so happy to see them. The end result was that I got taken for granted. Well not any more. The worm has turned.
I know many of you don't like my Warrior Queen analogy but from now in that is what I shall be. ?. No more being afraid of what the future may hold. I'm done with that.
Yogin.....great news that you have exchanged.....how exciting, stressful and exhausting of course but none the less still a positive thing to do. A new house, a new life .....Whiff is right, a whole new world will open up to you.
Which is exactly what I am now working towards. I have got some EAs booked for valuations. So it begins. I am so ready to move and make a much fresh start.
I have no idea where I want to live, what type of property. Rather than be rushed and make a mistake I will probably go into rented for a while then I can take my time and find my perfect little nest. I want to downsize and simplify.
All I know is I'm 70 and who knows how many "good" years I've left. My time is now very precious and I am not going to waste what time I have on people who don't want me, or only tolerate me for their own ends......even if they are family.
So whether it's 2 years or 20 I am going to get busy living,
It's a gorgeous day, cold but bright and sunny. I am going to wrap up warm and head off out, I do need to pop into ASDA - oh the excitement?. But a perfect day for getting out and about. .