The sad thing about this is my GS and I were on a sinking ship and my GS had to be rescued from the situation and I had to rescue MYSELF from the situation
That way I could get back on my feet and be in a good position to care for my GS - I could not do that while I was on board that ship 
No contact from the SW all day
My phone was off for a couple of hours this morning ( of all days ) without me realising , it was completely dead for some reason , battery full but phone dead so I had to take the battery out , put it back in again and it powered up ok then but no voicemail so just waited
Either she is off work or I have a feeling they may be checking things out their end first but I did think she would call me to get a clear picture first
Turns out as I found out today that what happened was just a ''one off'' but best they still look into it not happening again in the future and it has made me feel it is even more urgent to have my GS back in his family
Am sure who my GS has contact with in the family etc will have to be looked at but that is fine and am sure they do not expect a perfect family and nor do I but just that the child is safeguarded at all times especially from the very thing / reason he is not with his parent in the first place / taking into account what he has been through already
I have been so patient in this and it is really hard at times and I really DON'T want it dragging on longer than it needs to as a year in care is a long time for a child especially a child with special needs and this seems like such a LONG journey , it goes on week after week after week of watching my GS walk away in the care of someone else when I KNOW 100% I am fully capable of giving him the care he needs with the added bonus of being a family member who loves him dearly and cares about him completely and is committed to him for good xx
I feel it will work out in the end but it is also scary stuff to have to go through in depth assessments , have never been through anything like that before plus court , court is scary anyway and have only been once to court to get a court order against someone but it was easy and pretty straighforward even though I was scared stiff and only 20 years old so that was over 30 years ago and nothing like this so I do naturally get fearful , worried and anxious at times even though I do feel deep in my heart it will all be ok and everything will be absolutely alright in the end!! 
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Hang on in there nannymoo, we're all rooting for you!
and ((hugs)) x
Have some news!!! 
It is a step in the right direction but still keep PRAYING for me please!!!
The SW rang today and said they had had a word with the foster carer and as she is new to it she did not know the implications of having her niece around my GS even if sober so she apologised and said it won't happen again
THEN the SW said the foster carer is going away for 4 nights with just adults and the SW does not want my GS placed with a stranger for those nights so she needs it cleared by management but she has asked if I can have him for the 4 nights!!!
It really is a step in the right direction so I so hope it is a yes ..
It's weird because I have been 'preparing things' my end and not quite sure why , but now I know - The garden will be finished on Sunday and before the SW called I got out a 7'' tablet I had in the cupboard for months for my GS and decided to download all his favourite songs and apps etc on it and it is so weird I had the feeling to do that after all this time and then I got the call
Had also been looking into local days out last night!
I found a lovely walk by the river just 15 mins away by bus we can do so he can watch the boats go by which he loves and there is also a lovely 'physic' garden to explore with a lovely cafe which I am hoping sell ice creams as I have been yearning to do the simple things like buy him and ice cream , give him his bath , get him into his PJ's and tuck him up in bed with stories ...
It is NEXT WEEK and I have a calm joyous smile inside which will become real smiles when they hopefully say yes!
This is just the treat me and him needs , was in tears yesterday as I miss him ALL the time but sometimes it gets too much and I have to have a cry and get the pain out , so this is a joyous thing to happen as I was saying I can't take missing him anymore while I was crying!!
It is such a step in the right direction and everything ( including me! lol ) is SO ready and I will get him to help me give the puppy a bath on the Friday evening , then his bath and PJ time and the next day a lovely walk by the river and then around the pretty gardens and ending up at the cafe if allowed on Sunday a couple of CLOSE relatives can pop round just for a couple of hours as don't want to overwhelm him but it will be SO good for him to get used to ''Nannys new house'' which is what the SW said too and he can finally have some of ''NANNYS PORRIDGE'' which he has been asking for and I feel like crying in the good way so please pray all goes well for me and this is the start of good things to come! 
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Fabulous news!
I'm just so pleased for you
Fingers crossed nannynoo. Your plans for your time together sound smashing.
Wonderful news nannynoo - your plans sound great
Gonna pray it's a yes. Great news. Really cheering.
Thanks everyone , feeling positive now x
Please check out my profile page by clicking on my name and you can see photos of my puppy , grandchildren , their bedroom and my neighbourhood! xx
Their bedroom has been sitting empty for 8 months , my little Granddaughter has stayed over for one fabulous night with more to come I reckon , but in UK (unless a certain political party get in today ) I have been paying £88 per month for an empty room
Sometimes I couldn't even go in there and other times it cheered me up
I NEED THAT ROOM FILLED! lol
It needs to be throughtly messed up 
LOL x
Ooh! That all looks really nice. Specially the cute little kids. And the puppy!
nannynoo lovely pictures. Will keep praying you get your wish soon.
Lovely pictures, nannynoo. Your GC are very cute and the plans for next week sound lovely.
Good luck with everything nanny we that have our GC take things for granted at times, your gs is a handsome looking lad and your gd beautiful, I'm sure you wouldn't be complaining id they messed the room up
They are indeed cousins
My older DD and SIL have the 3 year old , they lost their baby little girl last August so am hoping we will have some more good news soon as my DD is currently studying at home to become a teacher
Everything is going better , it feels like it is anyway!
We planted the dwarf sunflowers today and my GS took a pot with him , I bought one home with me and the contact centre kept one so he and the other children can watch them grow there too!
I have a passion for children especially children with special needs , My DGS has opened up a whole new world to me and it is an amazingly beautiful world and I love it , want to help him develop in any way I can and support him in persuing his interests and reaching his full potential in life and it is an incentive to keep myself well as I want to be around for as long as possible!
I used to take SO much for granted , the freedom to see and be with my Grandchildren whenever I wanted and now to be 'granted' time with my GS feels like I have won the lottery! lol
And to have him full time will be like hitting the highest jackpot ever!!
I never envisaged that I would be ''allowed'' 4 nights with my DGS when before I had him freely with me for weeks at a time , took him on holiday abroad just me and him , had him over for weekends , school holidays etc with no restrictions and NOW it feels like a LUXURY to be able to have him but I am indeed SO grateful and so thankful to the SW for even thinking of me when it comes to having him as it is an absolute breakthrough and priviledge to be granted this as it is precious to even get 2 hours a week with him , especially on my own
I have never had to deal with anything like this in my life ie SW involvement , contact centres , assessments , foster carers , courts etc but it is all for my DGS sake so it is all worth it , to see him happy and secure and in the family again will be so joyous , especially after all the pain and he has been through enough separation as well and was thinking today after the visit next week which I hope will go ahead there will be only about 10 more weeks of separation if things hopefully do go well and I can live with that even though it certainly would have been a tough year I am actually grateful for that too as many children end up in foster care for longer eg 3 years and I honestly do not think I would be able to cope with that as a year would have been long enough for me xx
I feel a year would be long enough for my DGS too!!!!! <3 x
All set for tomorrow!!!
It has all been approved and finalised including transport to school
I am going to have him for 5 nights!!! I feel like crying but in a good way..
All prepared and set , the garden is done and is looking SO lovely , have put astro turf down , we built the wendy house and trampoline at the weekend and there is a ball pit , sand and water table , slide and see saw!
Plus a kiddies seating area with their own parasol , windmills which spin in the wind and a wall fountain with the soothing sound of water plus some tinkling wind chimes , it is so peaceful and beautiful out there and at dusk the solar lights come on all along the bedding areas plus some flashing multicoloured ones on the fencing plus the see saw lights up too!!!
I had a colourful childrens parachute which I put up in a corner of the garden as an added sun shade
If it was going to be really warm I would have got the paddling pool out but might save that for the future
Have a big box of porridge oats as he was asking for ''Nannys porridge'' lol and am making him his favourite = macaroni cheese and am adding ham and broccoli to it
Am going to make him a fruit salad and some special ice cream you whip up in the blender just using frozen fruits and youghurt!
I have some special 'sundae' dishes and a long spoon for him to eat the ice cream with and am SO EXCITED my heart feels like it is going to burst! lol
I know there are going to be sweet , sweet moments over the whole 5 days , it will be like a little holiday for him like we used to have together!! xx
Thank you for all your well wishes , prayers and positive support!! x
Can I come and play in your garden nannanoo?
Wish you loads of happiness.
nannynoo it sounds wonderful. Can't say it better than jings loads of happiness have a lovely time
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