There are some things I think are unfair about this placement let alone being expected to supervise and even get to contact 4 times a week 12 miles away on top of all the meetings I have to attend etc & I had 4 different meetings at the school 12 miles away last week and was expected to then do 4 x contacts on top of that and have been running around like a blue ar*ed fly when all I want to do is concentrate on little man and our home life
I was told today I was meant to get a holiday payment for him each year for the past 2 years which never happened! Plus a school uniform payment for the past 2 years as well which no one told me so I did not get!
I was expected to pay all the transport costs to get myself to my daughters house 12 miles away 4 times a week let alone now 2 times a week and they said can't help with that
I feel they expect so much when all I want to do is get on with looking after little one but 'it never ends' and I have no 'space' in my life
My respite has not been sorted yet as now they are saying there is a problem with who authorises it when I was told it has been agreed upon and that they were 'looking for someone' but now it seems they are not as it has not been authorised by the other department and I was not told it needed to be
So my life consists of running up and down to contact , school meetings , open evenings and summer events , having home visits every fortnight , looking after little man and his emotional fall outs etc , running the home , looking after my dog who has a skin condition now , with no respite or break , struggling financially , feeding back to the sw by email how the contact is going , keeping up with all the dental and health appointments etc , writing records about contact and health in his fostering book , liasoning with his school about his general well being etc , going on the mandatory fostering courses which I am behind on , seeing to a plumbing problem which is leaking into the neighbours house so plumbers in and out but is not fixed yet , behind on gas safety check which is important , LAC review officer is arranging a home visit , trying to sort out the garden because it is a mess with weeds and I want to use it this summer and can't , got my carers health check next week which might be a good thing and basically if contact was still at 4 times a week on top of all that I would crack up! lol
Seeing to all little mans needs is enough in itself without all the 'extra stuff' and I don't mind the 'normal' stuff but it is not easy for me living so far away from contact and school etc and where all meetings are held and a lot of this stuff isn't 'normal' to me when I think about a normal and peaceful , therapeutic home life for me and little man