Yup exactly bashing me and the school because ''everyone else is getting it wrong APART from her'' is not a good tactic
Put others down to build yourself up , deflect everything away from yourself so the blame or faults are ''other peoples''
Slate someone else as a carer to show you are a ''better carer than them''
She might as well bite , kick , scream , yell , punch ANYTHING ELSE APART from concentrate on HERSELF and her own path of recovery and proving to the judge that she in her own right in her own self is capable and not by putting others down!!!
She thinks I am putting her down by presenting the truth so has thought OK then I will 'present the truth of my own' by bringing up EVERY mistake I have ever made in my entire life hoping that it destroys my character and therefore makes hers good in comparison
I think the only truth which matters is the truth of the past 2.3 years that lo has been with me and or the truth of the previous 6.7 years since little man was born and in her care and YES the tooth which badly needs treatment now ( still looking for the right dentist as will not drag him from dentist to dentist and have them refuse to treat him! ) and his weight ( workable on and especially once the stress , insecurity and confusion in his life has ended as it is definitely comfort / emotional / stress eating! ) are CURRENT issues I am working on and both are FIXABLE , the past I cannot change , just come clean about etc but how about her coming clean about her current drug and alcohol use and mental health problems??? That would be a start to getting her son back , not lying , deceiving , tricking , blaming everyone else apart from herself , deflecting the focus and downright wanting to 'destroy the enemy' when the enemy is the one who has and still is preventing you from losing your child completely to adoption!!
Yet she refuses to see that and I apparently am the only person standing in the way of her and her child being reunited , well even if that is true I will not move aside so she can potentially HARM him mentally and emotionally etc and sometimes I feel like giving up because of all the stress and the stress to come but I look at little man and say NO I cannot do it - I cannot give up on him and his future happiness , never , ever , ever at all
Crazy thing is she thinks if he was removed from my care they would hand him straight back to her!!! .... erm NO , social services have initiated care proceedings because they have concerns about the child being in your care!! They are doing this because you said if they did not return him to you by Christmas you would take him so they had to do SOMETHING as they were not HAPPY for you to ''take him'' hence why it is at COURT right now , she almost tells everyone that SHE is taking social services to court to get her son back when actually that is not the case!!
If they had no concerns they would have said ''okay then , we will work with you towards reunification around Christmastime'' but it went to a legal planning meeting as they did not WANT that to happen so are taking steps to PREVENT it happening! I alongside them are voicing my concerns which is what she hates because she wants me to support her reunification which I cannot do because of my concerns the same as social services have!
I think I am going potty sometimes as it feels like this is ''her case'' which she has brought to court because she does not agree with him being in care when in fact social services have brought the case to court because they have CONCERNS about little man being returned to her care and I wish I saw it like that more as it feels my daughter ruddy brainwashes everyone into her way of thinking
I am a ''bad carer'' which AUTOMATICALLY makes her a ''good carer'' so a tooth which has not been treated as yet and being overweight are worse than drug and alcohol use along with mental health issues and a tbh 'dodgy' boyfriend who is supposed to be allowed not just around my Grandson but left in his sole care if my daughter goes out etc ..... HELL NO!!! Lol
But pick out my whole list of faults from 30 years ago and hers all automatically diminish erm not in the courts eyes actually as they want to know about current issues and current care and just the fact that she wants to remove him from me out of spite shows them she is not thinking about his best interests as would she rather rip him away and put him into stranger foster care or does she REALLY think they will be knocking at her door with him???
( Sadly I think she is under the delusion that if I can no longer care for him they will be knocking down her door for her to have him!!! Lol )
Anyway , even her thinking to me is a bit off key as her focus should be on proving herself to the judge not slinging mud at me .... it seems like a diversion tactic or ''look what a bad carer my Mum is'' ...soooo it necessary follows as ''look what a good carer I AM / will be in 'comparison''' as I would not have done those things to him ( ie his tooth would be fixed and he would not be overweight and I have not done all those bad things my Mum did in the past!!!!!! ) Look what a good / perfect carer I am for him in comparison!!
Yeah right , your Mum is not on drugs or an alcoholic with mental health issues , she takes care of herself and when the stress get's too much she reaches out for help and tries to get the situation resolved ( ie someone else supervising contact soon in the run up to court ) she SEEKS / ASKS for counselling ( not refuses it ) she COMES CLEAN about every single accusation which is thrown at her ( by you only as you are the only one who does it ) She does not lie about it but comes clean about everything , she is not covering anything up! ..... She did not take class A drugs while her children were young or end up on 'tag' twice , or arrested for drink driving both times refusing to do the breathalyser test , or in court for violent offences and assaulting a police officer all while her Autistic son was still in her care , or passed out drunk when the school bus dropped her son off so did not answer the door on numerous occasions , or child went UNFED ( and you have the cheek to say he is overweight now but at least I ruddy well FEED him! ) so yeah you point the finger at me if you like and ok the above is the 'past' stuff as well before he was removed but it was the past stuff while my Grandson was in your care and none of the stuff you accuse me of from my 'past' was when my Grandson was in my care or even born yet!!!
But let's look at your 'current' stuff , you say you are clean of EVERYTHING , don't touch a drop of alcohol and nor does your boyfriend who does not take drugs either and won't allow you to drink , he is not living with you and he was not smoking weed in front of the children at your sons Birthday party or pass out stoned on the settee towards the end of the party ....
All LIES so you can lie to get your son back and expect me to go along with it and remove him from his happy home to be subjected to both you and your boyfriend who don't abuse animals or drugs or alcohol ( she lied about the pet abuse and denied it of course to everyone ) and you have the cheek to be angry at me for letting the truth out so okay you have 'done the same' but in such a dirty , underhand , malicious , vengeful , spiteful way to the point of saying you don't want him in my care? well okay then I will hand him back and he will be ADOPTED and you will lose him forever and never see him again but of course that WON'T happen because you are going to lie your way through court and the assessments and psychiatric evaluations by saying all the right things and play acting which you are a bit too worryingly good at tbh but I hope to God they can all see through it because my gut flips at the thought of my Grandson being in your care unless something changes and you come clean and get some ruddy help ...please , for your own sake , let alone this being your last chance to get your son back who wants to stay with me anyway so you will have your work cut out as it is to resettle him!!!
Sorry to rant so much , it just feels wrong what she is doing and I am just about slowly recovering this week from the stress and trauma of it all xx
A lot of people are saying 'fair enough , she is fighting back dirty' but I do NOT feel it is 'fair' but yet I know she cannot help herself which is worrying in itself but let's just see how everything goes as I am done with my 'snooping' and 'investigating' and social services can take over that role now and do that part of things and I can just see to little man who still has no idea if he is coming or going but keeps saying ''stay with Nanny please''
I am going to be concentrating on ;
1/ Little man of course , bless him , and
2/ My SGO assessment , and that's IT unless we get our move to our therapeutic dream house as well , that would be some nice icing on the cake for us as well as little baby Granddaughter from my older daughter making an appearance in December and she is our Rainbow Baby after losing her baby sister 3 years ago so we could do with some joy tbh!! x