Some of you may have seen on the estrangement thread that we have been completely cut off from our other GC, something that breaks my heart on a daily basis.
We were good, kind, loving, caring and generous GP's, yet our best, it seems, wasn't enough and we have been shut out completely.
We found out a few weeks ago that we are to be GP's again (different AC) but I just feel nothing. I have no interest. I haven't even shared the news. Before I would have been excitedly buying all sorts, telling everyone, chattering away and looking forward. This time I find I'm having to literally force myself to smile and try and sound like I care. I sound so nasty, I know.
I feel sad for the GC we have "lost" and I feel sad for the GC yet to come. I know I have been damaged by what has happened and I want to feel happy but its just not there.
Miserable old bugger, I know.
Nervous about grandchild's birth - it freaks me out
Retired husband is driving me crazy - not depressed, just lazy
Beloved dog put to sleep - dealing with pet loss