Kind thoughts please

Thinking of you today annie. The right thing is sometimes so hard to do. I’m also sad there seems no way to get help with agorophobia, a truly debilitating illness. Sending love.

My heart goes out to you as I look at the time and realise that parting with your Phoebe is nigh Anniebach,however as you have already witnessed the bond between her and your daughter you know you are doing the right thing.
I send you some heartfelt hugs.
For Phoebe I wish happy days.
Whilst it is high time you had much needed help with your agorophobia and I also echo the advise of pestering the people that should be there offering you help is the way to go............sadly we live in an age that "He/She whom shouts the loudest wins"

Even more humiliating, my younger daughter tried to find a key holder for me yesterday , no one, she discussed it with care line, seems I will have to depend on the police ! Social services said I am surrounded by a large family so don't need them. My emergency contact is my younger daughter, I live in Mid Wales she lives in Lincolnshire !

Annie, the links between your mental health, the bridge, your daughter's death and your GP surgery may mean the council and neighbouring councils would see that as "reason to move"

I apologise if this seems inappropriate annie. Many years back I was a volunteer advocate. A quick google search of advocacy in Powys brought up several organisations offering advocacy, one being Age Cymru who appear to cover all of Powys. There are other organisations more specifically focused. My search was prompted by iam’s thought about your situation. An advocate would meet with you, understand and champion your needs. Worth a consideration? Someone local to support and fight for you can only be a good thing.

Oh Annie I've just caught up with this and seen the time. I know you know you're doing the right thing for Phoebe and know she is going to have a wonderful time in her new home with your daughter but it doesn't stop the sadness of saying goodbye. Give Lottie lots of fuss and attention both for her and your heartache. The good thing is that she will have a loving home and you will get to hear and see how she's doing - some poor pets have to be sent to shelters when their owners are unable to look after them so at least she is spared that. I really wish there was some way all of us on here could help with your agoraphobia. Could you afford to have some hypnotherapy in your own home to help you overcome the anxiety with the bridge? The longer it goes on the harder it will be and you really do need to be able to visit the GP surgery without that fear.

Thinking of you and all that you have gone through and still having to bear

cornergran, no apology please, it was so kind of you. The mental health advocacy team are 60 miles away.

Age Cymru have moved 35 miles away and the housing officers dislike them interfering ! Some years ago Age Cymru tried to help me have a bungalow, a housing officer told me ' bringing them into it has done you no favours' , I had to wait about five years . I kid you not, the gestapo must have been easier to deal with than this council.

I asked the refuge dept if the refuge collectors could put the bins back when they emptied them, I have to have a GP fill in a form to say I cannot retrieve them from the end of the path, I explained it was only three yards nearer to where i kept them , - no it would take up their collection time so would only do so if I had a GP fill in the form.

Willow, I watched Phoebe go to the car, had a weep, that's it.

It isn't really anxiety with the bridge,I just don't want to see the spot where my darling daughter jumped into the river, I can think of her walking into my living room , sitting in my garden but do not want to look at that spot and wonder how she must have felt standing there at 5.00am, in the dark , alone and so desperate she chose to drowned , just cannot cope with it , perhaps silly but that's how it is.

Not silly at all Annie I don’t think any of us would be any different to you.
so very sorry that Phoebe has had to be rehomed, but very pleased that she will be happy with your daughter.

Dear Annie thinking of you and sending (((hugs)))

Definitely not silly Annie. I think it’s disgusting that you can’t get more help and feel your doctor could be doing more. It’s very early days still, what you’ve been through will take a lot of coming to terms with. You should be able to access talking therapies via your GP. It does help.

(By the way, Lincolnshire is very nice. It even has hilly bits! If you can’t get a key holder near by perhaps you should move near the key holder!)

Thank you all, you are so kind to me, and I know I do at times spread gloom and doom, I am truely sorry and I am so grateful for your encouragement and kindness X