Black Dog Gang 4

* Annie, Nanny, Joce, Nonnie and all*

I hope you're all ok today, and that the weekend was alright for you.

I had been pressured by my GP into finding out about Talking Therapy in my area, so I agreed, a few months ago, and said I'd like to try the telephone/online counselling. The Counsellor rang me a few weeks ago, said I'd be assigned a person to help me. This person rang me a month ago, didn't ask me anything at all, but said I should look on Silver Cloud, and that I could leave messages for him, and do a journal on there about how I was feeling etc. I did do that, and wrote some things on there. He was meant to have reviewed these things I'd put on there and then ring me on a date and at a time he'd chosen. Fone. I waited, and the call never came. Days went by, no word. I messaged him, he said his laptop had been broken and that he hadn't been able to contact me (he had my mobile and home number though).

Because I am often quite paranoid/mistrusting, I don't believe him. He's since texted me, said he'll review me tomorrow. My instinct has been to tell him I'm no longer interested, and I've blocked him. Am I mad?

Salsa talking therapy can help. Don’t give up tomorrow.

Can you not speak to the counsellor ? Explain how the online
counsellor has troubled you and ask if you can be assigned to
a different counsellor.

There is no reason/ excuse for him not to have contacted you
and explained about his laptop .

Stay strong, x

Evening all Salsa I have not tried talking therapy, but I do agree with Annie there is no excuse for not contacting you. Don’t give up I think any thing is worth a try..

Annie hope you are ok how’s it going with your hands ?

Night all sleep well ?

* Annie* and Joce I had an email (it was in the "junk" folder) from the online Counsellor. He asked how I am, mentioned that I hadn't put anything on the daily journal thing. I've told him I won't be using the service again. I feel alright at the moment (95% of the time), so I'm going to:

keep taking the tablets,
keep up with my job (I like it, but wish it was a few more hours)
Keep talking to you all on here (you all have experience of depression/anxiety etc)
Keep up with my exercises - aqua aerobics and Zumba yesterday, the same 2 today
Try to remember how VERY lucky I am, in having close family, friends, no debt, a job, good health, etc.

Thanks x

Annie how are you getting on with the splints?

Salsa so sorry you had a bad experience with counselling.

It’s good to be positive but please don’t let it mask your depression.

We are here for you , to share, listen and understand x

Splints proving very difficult!

* Annie* I really am feeling better lately, although it may not last.... but I'm not really one to talk openly about anything. It's good on here because I can talk freely, knowing that those of you on this subject understand what mental illness is like. It can't be easy having splints on, but if they work, it'll be worth it. I had to wear them at night, for Caprpal Tunnel problems. It worked, and I certainly hope you get good results x

hello all. sorry i havent been about..quite fed up right now a few things going wrong too long to explain. hope you are all well xx

I am at rock bottom. My prayers have not been answered and I got really cross with God tonight. I am shaking I am so scared. God will forgive me I know, he is kind but I am so frightened for my family. DGS in bad way. Please pray for them. I must ask His forgiveness.

Salsa it may last ,make a note for yourself telling yourself how you are feeling now x

nanny I am sorry, you have been coping so well for a while x

Doodle God can take it my love . Christ accused God of forsaking him didn’t he? Christ forgave poor St.Peter several
times yes ?

Your darling grandson, he , you and your family are in my prayers , how I wish a could hold you close in a cwtch . X

Thank you annie. I know you understand x

Doodle you have worries, don’t add to them by being troubled for being cross with God x

Doodle
You are worried about your dgc and that is a sign of your love for the little person and that is understandable. Try and switch off and only maybe worry for 20 minutes a day. Thinking of you and l do believe in the power of prayer as comfort and hope.

Annie
Really hope that you are managing with the splints. It must take great fortitude. We are really with you in spirit.

Best wishes to everyone else.

Speaking of worry l am a good one to talk because I worry myself. But l know they are just the perception of my thoughts. I came across this as l often research things. It is Eckhart Tolle type of thinking.

WATCH YOUR THOUGHTS.

Just that. Take a step back from them. Don't engage with them or try and control them but just let your thoughts be.

Night everyone. Dawn xx

Doodle I pray for your lovely grandson, his parents and for you.

My heart aches for you.
I truly understand, your fear and anxiety is
completely overwhelming.

I thank God that your grandson has You as a grandma.

I wish all the black dog gang a peaceful night

Thank you all for your kindness. I am just so tired now I am going to try and sleep. Hope you all sleep well x

Doodle I pray for you and your family, as I do for every one in the gang .
Dawn I really enjoy Eckhart Tolle brilliant man.
Hope you are ok Annie
Good night to everyone god bless us all..
sleep well ? .

Thank you Joce. That was a lovely good night to us all.
Take care and sleep well too. Sleep is the best and so healing.
Dawn????

Doodle I have been away so haven't been posting. You and your family are in my prayers daily. Don't worry about offending God when you are in this state, He's big enough to take it! And don't forget He knows you better than you know yourself. 'I have carved you on the palm of my hand' I know sometimes we feel He's not listening but sometimes He speaks through other people. I pray for your peace.

Sooo tired tonight think a early night is in order, didn’t get much sleep at all last night hope it’s a better one tonight for me, and for all of you good friends out there..
good night all sleep well ? God bless all

Annie thank you.

I hope everyone has had a better day today. I'm feeling so much better than I was a few weeks ago. I hope it lasts.

I hope everyone has a good night's sleep and a decent day tomorrow.

Hi all x

Keep positive x

Thank you eilyann for you kindness. You are in my prayers too. Sleep well all. xx

Hi all x

annie hope you are ok. How are you getting on with those splints?
Hope you all sleep well. I tend to sleep then wake up with a low feeling early morning. Try and put things to the back of my mind but spend a long time ruminating and praying. Very tired at the moment.
x

Morning all hope every one had a good night..
I was not too bad when I got up this morning, do hope it lasts. hope every one is feeling positive. Or best they can be..