Do you ever feel this will never be over?

I feel the same. I am ordinarily a homebody and there is never an end of things to do in the house and yard but I am not feeling very alright at all. My husband is older than I am, and it feels like internment for two. He has family in New York, and watches the news incessantly. So far, one person in his family has gotten Covid, but is young and appears to have made it through ok. Also, I can't stand to see that idiot Trump's face every time I pass through the living room on the T.V. news. The political insanity is depressing me as much as the pandemic. Let's not even talk about the healthcare crisis, that was a crisis before the pandemic. I miss seeing my adult children, and love them with all my heart but it is plain to see that during the Covid nightmare, I am the only one calling and texting them; they have barely bothered to respond to any of my attempts to see how they are doing and definitely haven't made any effort to call me and their Stepdad to see how we are. It feels like a terribly lonely, mixed up insane world right now in every area of my life. But I am situated so well compared to most, I feel guilty complaining about anything at all. I am gardening and bought some quail to raise, which are very cute! I am reading good books, eating well, chatting with the neighbors over the fence and trying to do the right things but I still feel a sense of deep despair about things being better any time soon. Thanks for letting me rant a bit, I enjoy everyone's posts and wish you all a Happy Easter Sunday. Despite everything, it is still a beautiful spring day here!

Just like SueDonin I am very afraid that some idiot will release us too soon, under pressure from The Public (read the Damn Meedja) and then we will be right back to square one. We really do have to sit this out and as someone said “we can”t sit in our houses until Christmas” - well for my money if the alternative is half the population wiped out I bloody well can sit it out all year long if I have to

Well Jane10 aren’t Google and Apple salivating to roll out the digital tracking...

It’s a bit Big Brother.

Thats kind Laibaik ,and a proper bit of help for anybody.

My tip is make a list of 3 or 4 things to do each day , cross them off, rinse and repeat.

Urm Sorry to hear you don't feel you will be able to pick up the threads? What do you think may change?

Urmstongran how will they curtail my freedom?

It will end and some form of normality will return. There have been times In my life when I have thought, I will never get over this. I will never be able to relax or be happy again. But it passes. An acceptance comes and we go on. I think it’s frightening because it’s happening to us all at the same time. I think we all have individual wobbles at time and perhaps don’t share them because they are for personal reasons. This time others are worried too. Take heart in the phrase this too will pass..because it will. Take care all

I am getting used to the restrictions and think these will continue for weeks to come.
One of our children is about to begin her 7th week of lockdown in Milan in a flat with husband two babies. They have kept well, observed all the rules and work and play as a team. We have two hospital doctors in the family; both have had the virus and now returned to the front line, one in ICU. Our middle daughter is recovering from the virus . But the most worrying thing we now have to face is that our doctor daughter has been diagnosed with stage 1 breast cancer and may not be able to have the mastectomy recommended for a possible 6-9 months. That is what worries us, not the fact that we are locked in, communicate totally via WhatsApp, Facetime or Zoom and have other restrictions.

Despite all this, we feel that lockdown has to continued for as long as necessary in order to reduce the risk of a resurgence.

Like all things, there’s a beginning, a middle and an end. We all have so much to look forward to when this is all over. Freedom for one. I have, as i’m sure many others have too, learnt how much I have to be thankful for and how I will hopefully never take it for granted again. There’s a lot of good in the world and a smile costs nothing-even from 6feet away!??

I start my day with an online work out and watch a 15 daily talk called Lockdown on premrawat.com. It is on Day 21 at the moment but you can catch up with the whole series. Very inspirational and sets you up for the day!

It will be all right in the end - if it’s not all right it’s not the end.............the only way I deal with this

I have nothing to complain about other than anxiety caused by my world being constantly rattled by what is happening to us all.

But, dear God, the sadness on here today. I would so love to meet up in a safe place and just talk and hug and cry with everyone here who is going through so much pain. There's common sense and kindness and hope on here too. I hope that all of you who've suffered such loss recently will want to get in touch with each other, to share your sadness and give each other comfort. More than anything now, I think we need that human contact and a chance to let our feelings out and our tears flow.

Love to you all who are suffering. There but for the grace......go all of us.

Craygrandma2 Thanks for the heads-up on the Joe Wicks sessions for older adults. Although I’m ‘Only’ 60. I have a badly damaged facet joint due to arthritis, arthritis in my feet and a dodgy knee. I find regular work-outs too fast and with too many twists for me. His work out is perfect, introducing movements to repeat at our own pace and pausing between movements, so each one can be begun from a stable position- perfect!

Graymar I feel scared that small and medium businesses won’t reopen. And that people will be scared to eat out in restaurants/go for a drink in a bar. More loss of earnings. People will be scared and hold onto their cash = less spending. Money is being phased out more as contactless payments are being made. It’s control.

Will some people even have jobs to go back to?

Jane10 I think FEAR will keep more people at home than is necessary. I worry that our freedoms will be eroded because of it.

Maybe I’m overthinking this today but I don’t think us oldies will be doing anything much until there is a vaccine. Social distancing will continue for months for us lot.

I worry about the economic fallout.

I am with you all - it just seems never ending - if we had a set date to work towards it would be different - and I know that’s not possible anyway. I am looking at my garden - lots of things to do - started planting - now it’s too hot - which I love - but have put down tools as what’s the rush - it will be there tomorrow ! That’s what I feel about housework - no rush so I am getting slower and slower. I had a wobble the other day as it’s ages since I seem to have cuddled grandchildren - which I know most of us feel - they all keep face timing - Skype etc but then it’s great to see them then if hits you again afterwards. I tell myself to be positive and be thankful that we are all okay. Two daughters both in hospitals - one on the front line - the other not so close - they never moan bless them - so grateful to them all. I am ranting I know... be positive - try to keep smiling it will end one day we just don’t know when.

We have to find a vaccine before it goes back to normal

I was being very pragmatic about things - a couple of little wobbles but nothing much. That was until four hours ago when I decided to paint the conservatory, a job that’s long overdue. I have the gloss for the sills but I have been completely unable to buy sodding paint for the walls - something that I took absolutely for granted until 4 weeks ago. I cannot properly express my loathing for this virus, for the people who still don’t heed the ‘stay at home’ message, for the politicians - everyone and everything. It’s beginning to feel like this purgatory will never end. Yes, I know paint is really really not important and yes I know what others are going through and yes I know I need a kick up the bum but all I want is five litres of paint .

It'll be a different kind of normal but it'll be OK. Maybe we'll all be more careful with money as there will be a huge hole in the economy but that offers opportunities too. Maybe the youngsters will be less starstruck by trashy 'celebrities'. Maybe there will be positive improvements in all sorts of ways.
I wonder what the first step in lifting the lockdown will be? Schools back maybe? Something to discuss.

I’ve been on lockdown in a small for 28 days now. Healthy enough and under 70y. But not even allowed out for a walk. No garden.

Perhaps I’m just going stir crazy. Life is seriously on hold.

I’ve not put the tv on today. I don’t want to see the figures worldwide.

I worry that vulnerable people aren’t getting necessary treatment for other conditions - cancer, mental health, as everything is so virus concentrated. No GP consultations, just telephone appointments. Some illnesses are going to be missed.

Why the draconian measures?

Is this something far more than we’ve been told?

SirChenjin. Have you thought to order it through Brewers Paint suppliers? They are bound to have a branch near you and their online service is 2nd to none. Every type of paint you could wish for. We have always ordered ours from the south of England and it's packed and send via DHL. (French paint is like using coloured water!!) Hope this might help you get on with your conservatory work.

We have only really been in this different world for two months. Nobody knows what the outcome will be, even the scientists. We can only follow their advice which changes daily.
I expect this is how our parents must have felt during the war years. Our isolation is quite tame compared to theirs, blackouts at night time, air raids, evacuations, my mum was from Liverpool and was evacuated to Norfolk for five years. At least we have modern technology to keep in touch.
I suppose I am used to it really as I am on chemo and have self isolated for four years.
As long as we have each other, and we can communicate, we will be alright.x

Greymar, I feel the same in the US. Scared, no motivation, hard to concentrate, poor sleep. Your description of “wobbly” is perfect. We live in a rural area of Michigan, 2 hours north of Detroit, which is a huge hotspot right now, and people from there who have cottages up here are moving up to feel safer. I understand their fear, but our numbers are now going up too. It’s like there’s no place safe. How will it all end? I also judge all the TV shows and movies for people standing so close!!!

It will end sooner or later, one way or another because as my mother used to say: Everything comes to an end, even a day in a train with a sick child. (We used to go by train every Summer to stay with her brother in Wales and I would throw up all the way there and all the way back!)

I am sure that this is the same feeling many will have had when we were at war 39-45.This time the enemy is unseen which makes it harder to defeat.I am fortunate to have my food delivered although much prefer getting out to the shops myself but feel am doing my bit in keeping away. I resign myself to my garden although only a ten minute walk to a sandy beach. It is sunny but a breeze and can hear the waves at this moment as the tide will be coming in. I dread to think how crowded this beach will be by those who believe it can never happen to them.


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I'm in the U.S. working very hard at my job still. I'm scared. Scared to get sick, scared to not work, scared for my adult children and my grandchildren. I don't know what tomorrow brings and that scares me too. So I go to work taking every precaution I can. My job was deemed "essential" so I do not get to hide. Yes, this will be a long road...this will take ALL of us (globally) to get through it and it will not be easy! Chin up!! We are a mighty force and we will all look back one day and say we walked this path of darkness and made it to the other side!!

Nona4ever. as there were so many posts I did not read them all before my last post - now I have and wish I hadn’t been feeling sorry for myself. One of my sisters moved house when her husband retired - they moved away to their dream countryside retreat away from several really good friends, and their family. Within 4 years my brother in law died leaving my sister alone and isolated, as, like you, they were self sufficient - even more so as they had no children.

It took her a long time but she eventually began to lead a full life and make new friends. As they say, you never forget your loved one, but you learn to live with the memories. It may be a while before you believe this. How very sad for you and your children that you could not visit your husband at the end. Please don’t pray to die, there is a future for you - your daughters, grandchildren to come? to wrap their little arms around your neck and listen to your stories of their unknown grandpa. Hang in there. ?