Forgive me yet again

What can I say other than bless you? Keep talking, keep sharing and everyone here will try to help and comfort in anyway they can. The grief you are experiencing I cannot imagine. Sending love to someone I have noticed since joining this site, always has time, care and advice for others, while coping with such enormous heartache herself.

What exactly do you want explained about toxicology: ml per litre of blood? Maybe I can help explain.

I'm sorry for what you're going through. I apologise for not knowing the background to this tragedy.

Sending you love and prayers, Annie. And hoping that there will be a way for you to reconcile with your sisters. No stepping back, we all care for you.

Please don't feel that way, you are not whining, you are grieving, angry,questioning,confused perhaps, but never, ever whining. Don't step back, keep venting on here. x

Alexa, there are others here who are grieving , my whining makes me feel selfish , perhaps I need to step back for a while

I am so sorry, I miss my sisters, I worry about them too , just cannot understand their thinking , it troubles me that someone wanted to cause me so much hurt, they must be ill. My niece sent me a text this week to tell me her daughter who is pregnant is having a boy but she only wants the family to know, I replied , said it was wonderful news and thanked her , no reply, she always called me her Mum no 2. She has suffered for years with depression, untill last January she phoned every day , silence since . My youngest sister sent me a text some time ago saying she felt guilty that she didn't contact me when my daughter died said there can be nothing worse that the death of a child and she will have to live with the guilt . Work that one out.

Annie, your feelings about the cross- stitch work and how she will never see it are understood by all who have been sadly bereaved. So please never think that what you write to us here is not understood or valued by us. What you tell us is understood in the deepest sense, and valued by us all.

Thinking of you, good wishes for a the best possible Thursday.

And as always me too Annie

Warm Thursday wishes from me too. xxx

Annie, you are in the depth of your grief, and it is normal to be lost for a while after something so devastating as the loss of your lovely daughter. Give yourself permission to mourn and flounder — and take time to just breathe. Your heart is broken and it needs time to mend.

Being part of this supportive community and being able to come here knowing there are Gnetters who are never too busy to respond to your cries, will help you make a kind of sense out of what has happened and to feel less alone. The realisation that we are not alone with our fear is very comforting.

I send you warm wishes for today and my admiration for being so very brave.

Moved house a year ago, i was thrilled to have thus bungalow, I remember telling you all about the difference it would make.

Much larger garden, near a church, near the hall for Labour Party meetings. On the flat so could have a scooter . Sisters said it would all be good.
Ten minute walk from my elder daughter

Can't garden because of arthritis

Can't use scooter because loss of weight and fear of going out.

Haven't heard from my sisters in a year.

Church no longer has a priest.

Resigned from local Labour Party

Daughter dead

Didn't turn out to be a good move did it

Thank you x

And yet more from me Annie. X

Dear Annie, just sending love and thinking of you and of your family. x

More and ((((hugs)))) - and a little hot nourishing chicken soup.

Annie

Writing your memories of your darling daughter for your grandchildren is such a lovely idea Annie and will be so therapeutic for you as well as for them. As you write, as you think of all those times, your heart will be uplifted by all those happy moments, and you will be able to smile .

Please keep writing here and reading everyone's love and support for you - we really are all holding you in our virtual arms, helping you along the road through your grief. And never, ever apologise for posting here. Sending prayers as always, and so much love for you Annie

Prayers , kind thoughts and love are the most powerful gifts to give loopy , thank you x

I can only send my prayers, thoughts and love Anniebach, woefully inadequate as they are.
Big hug and thinking of you x

loopy, I cannot go near the bridge. Only just remembered when I was sixteen my mother gave me a gold crucifix belong to a great aunt who had brought Mum up, she was an orphan.

One day I was leaning over the bridge to see the river in flood and the crucifix, which I wore every day, just fell off my neck and into the river. Had forgotten that,

Too many have died there, so always a sad place, now it is where my girl died.

Dear Annie, do you possibly think it might be helpful to have a little ceremony at the bridge. With a friend or a priest to say some words and then drop some flowers in to say 'God Bless" to her. Only of course when you feel it would be possible for you.
And my thoughts are with you. Have you been able to put on any weight?

Hi Annie writing - and reading - can be very therapeutic and GN is a good place to do both (mostly)!
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You are being held, and held up, by the responses from the Gransnetters. Keep writing, and reading.

I hope you have a peaceful day today

Annie I imagined I heard you smiling as you wrote those memories for us to read, so you must write them for her children too. You can share them in person with the children and answer their questions about their Mum. I don't think you'll have any problem keeping your daughter's memory alive if you carry on as you've started on here.

It's not quite the same, but I often still talk about my Dad almost twenty years after he died. It's up to us to make sure that the old saying 'Dead, but not forgotten' is true for a loved one. I'm sure you will play a big part in making sure it's true for your beloved daughter.

annie you have such lovely memories of your daughter. You must write them down, not only for her children to read but for you to remember. Remember she was happy and she loved you all. Cling to that knowledge. x