My DS2 would have been 30 tomorrow

(((Hugs))). I have no words that will help phoenix.

So very sad and more than Understandable Phoenix. I don’t think it’s possible to ever truly get over something as sad as this. You must miss him so much.
Hope you have something planned for tomorrow.
Thinking of you bothx

How desperately sad Phoenix. Whether your son had some sort of mental illness like my DS I don’t know, but so many young men and women take their own lives. If only we knew the answer to saving them.

I was lucky, but still have my phone on 24 hours just in case things start sliding downwards again.

I do hope you can celebrate/remember the birthday of your boy tomorrow.

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very difficult

Thinking of you Phoenix - your son will always be 19 in your mind but it won't stop you thinking of what might have been. I have two friends who have both lost their adult children - I know how hard it is for them

Phoenix, I send you love and understanding x

phoenix, my heart hurts for you.

Thank you all for the posts, they are appreciated.

Phoenix I have no words just gentle (((Hugs))) and .

Phoenix
For 46 years I have looked at other little boys/bigger boys/young men/men the age of my eldest SIL/all 3 of my daughters as they have grown up and just wondered -
What would my first child, our little boy who lived just short of a month have been like? What would he have become, how different might our lives have been?
Who knows what the future might have held for them?
Those happy memories of his birth, of childhood birthday parties- nobody can take those away from you .
Of course you miss him

- a difficult day for you full of what might have been. So hard for you. I am sure that the love he received from you was the centre of his life. You could do no more than that. Mental illness is so cruel and its seriousness so often underestimated. I am holding you in my thoughts today.

Phoenix , thinking of you

phoenix
So sad when you loose someone so young and you can only imagine what their life would have been.

phoenix. My DD took her own life aged 24 in 2006.
A few weeks ago I met a man who was her best friend at school. He's now approaching 40, married with 4 children. I was happy for him but it really brought home to me what might have been and what I've lost.

Phoenix sending you heartfelt hugs. xx

It must be the very worst unimaginable loss, your own child. I feel for you Phoenix

Im so sorry for everyone’s loss.

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Don’t know what to say as I can’t imagine what you’re going through but sending you a hug xx

phoenix I’m so sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine how you move past such a loss and I don’t think you do, just find a way to carry on over time. You mention him often (I don’t mean that in a bad way) so he is obviously still very much loved and close to your heart. So, so sorry

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My first cousin lost her son when he took his own life aged 21, then she lost her only brother in similar circumstances aged 38. Such anguish, it is heartbreaking.

My heart goes out to you Phoenix Sending hugs

I have no words to help phoenix so sending love and a gentle hug. Be kind to yourself.

To you too kathsue