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Struggling Sundays

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Yennifer Sun 02-Feb-20 22:48:18

I haven't been in contact with my mother for a long time, years even but Sundays were always the day I went to visit. I would come home very ill with stomach cramps, partly because I have food allergies she thought were nonsense and I didn't want to risk the anger if I didn't eat and partly stress of holding it together and not rising to her nastiness I think. Now all that is over, no more stomach issues but every Sunday night without fail I don't sleep until sometimes 4 or 5am. I don't know if anyone has any advice for me, how to break this pattern, I've spoken to the doctor and tried sleeping pills which didn't work. It makes for an awful start to the week. Has anyone else experienced anything similar and know what I might be missing here? x x

Phloembundle Mon 03-Feb-20 15:09:30

I put the radio onto a talk only channel. The babble sends me off.

Nanny41 Mon 03-Feb-20 16:06:58

I have always had trouble getting to sleep and now if there is anything particular happening next day,I toss and turn all night, which is ridiculous really.A few weeks ago we had a speaker in our club talking about sleeping problems,she was a professor in sleep management, one thing I picked up on, which suits me, is instead of looking at the clock and thinking "oh I only have five hours left to sleep" turn it around and think " oh lovely I have five more hours to sleep"It works most of the time, and one night without a lot of sleep doesnt do any harm.
Good Luck Yennifer

Yennifer Mon 03-Feb-20 16:34:44

Thank you x

Xxjanexx Mon 03-Feb-20 16:50:46

It’s terrible not being able to sleep,I really feel for you.
I tend to listen to Michael searly he is on you tube and has lots off different videos
I use headphones and cover my screen I have not got to the end of one yet.

Hetty58 Mon 03-Feb-20 17:15:36

I'd go for a really long walk early evening to get physically relaxed and tired. It can be easy to fool your own mind into thinking it's just a Friday too! Is it related to any worries about Monday morning?

Xxjanexx Mon 03-Feb-20 18:08:24

vickya thanks for the link I’ve just ordered some,I’m hoping it will help my mental health x

lindadoughty650 Mon 03-Feb-20 18:30:08

Lilybelle, that was such a lovely post, full of compassion and sense. Thank you xx

lindadoughty650 Mon 03-Feb-20 18:31:27

Of course I meant Tillybellle, so sorry xx

cannotbelieveiamaskingthis208 Mon 03-Feb-20 19:17:07

I have had terrible Sunday insomnia all my life.

Yennifer Mon 03-Feb-20 19:28:23

You are all lovely, maybe next Sunday evening I will read through them all again because you have all taken a lot of stress off me x

Hithere Mon 03-Feb-20 19:53:08

"You don't say f your mother is alive or not. If she is, I would suggest contacting her and just talk about what issues you both have. Once you and she have made up you will be able to sleep better. She is probably upset also, and she is getting on in age and may not be around much longer."

How do you dare suggest this? How could it even cross mind?
A person who poisoned her own daughter for years?
This is way past the talking point.
This is ABUSE, period.

On top of it, you are the guilt trip of "she won't be here much longer". Every time I hear it, it makes me rolls my eyes and think "too bad so sad, good riddance"

Jennifer,
Hugs.
Congratulations on your achievements! Many more to come, I swear.

Hithere Mon 03-Feb-20 19:55:33

You add, not you are

Jillybird Tue 04-Feb-20 00:09:11

Message withdrawn at poster's request.

Sparkling Tue 04-Feb-20 07:57:57

Jillybird? I understand why you cried, Yenifer it must be so hard, I just hope you have your own loving families. I tread on eggshells with my daughter, I can feel her boredom of me and know I am a disappointment. You can't fight indifference so I cope. Luckily for me I have other family and friends whom are loving, but I wish it could have been different as i love her so much.

Yennifer Tue 04-Feb-20 14:02:54

Julliybird, sorry for your loss, its still a loss grieving what you should have had. Sparkling, yes I do, I have amazing friends and my own lovely family. I'm glad you have that too x

Smileless2012 Tue 04-Feb-20 16:19:17

Sparklingflowersenjoy the time you spend with others that you love and who love you in return.

Yennifer Tue 04-Feb-20 16:40:25

I found a white noise I liked but it was running water and I did need a wee twice in the night lol x

knickas63 Tue 04-Feb-20 17:27:07

Make yourself a new ritual for Sundays. Something lovely just for you. Suns in somnia is quite common - so it may not just be past issues causing it, but a new ritual may haelp to change your mindest for the evening?

Starlady Wed 05-Feb-20 05:30:34

Yennifer, since others have indicated that Sunday insomnia is not unusual, I realize it may have nothing to do w/ your mum. However, do you tend to think about her on Sundays? If so, I would try to avoid that. As soon as thoughts of her creep in, change the subject in your mind. Play some cheerful music, watch a favorite DVD, go out and do some activity or "something lovely just for you,' as knickas suggests. Fall asleep watching a good show or whatever. Maybe keeping her out of your mind will help. IDK. Just a thought...

Grammaretto Wed 05-Feb-20 06:58:51

Luckily i can usually get to sleep but have had entirely sleepless nights and survived. I try to be accepting if sleep doesnt come.
I try yoga breathing, sleepytime tea, crossword puzzles, listening to the radio, reading and trying not to dwell on my worries and fears.
Plan a holiday and change of routine.

Evie64 Wed 05-Feb-20 21:52:13

Yennifer, so sorry to hear how bad you are feeling. Perhaps your insomnia is based in deep seated subconscious guilt that you don't visit your mother anymore? Try to reconcile that and accept it for what it is. You know the old saying, "You can choose your friends, you can't choose your family". Continue counselling if it helped.

Yennifer Thu 06-Feb-20 14:08:06

I'm feeling a bit more positive about it. I don't really think about her that much thses dayswhich is very different to worrying about what was coming next all the time or thinking I deserved it x

Yennifer Sun 09-Feb-20 21:45:45

OK ladies it's Sunday and I'm about to do my pre bedtime routine as normal. Going to be settling in for some reading. If I feel my eyes closing I will put the book down, if no sleep I will just go back to reading. I know I will make it through tomorrow no matter how much sleep I get so no stressing! Wishing you all nice dreams and a good sleep x

Hithere Sun 09-Feb-20 23:10:10

Great plan!

Yennifer Mon 10-Feb-20 10:14:54

I don't actually know how long I slept, the cat woke me up and the husband woke me up but I think overall it was a better night. I think I was gone before midnight which is mssive for me x