Years ago, just after my Dad died when I was in my 30s, I attended a WEA course on 'How to Cope with Bereavement'. At the first session, the leader said something that has stuck with me ever since, and has helped me a lot.
He said, 'Bereavement isn't just about death. It can be about loss of anything - future plans, relationships, friendships - and you grieve in the same way for these. You still go through the stages of grief - recognise this and it will help you to understand your feelings'.
This is about the loss of the futures that we'd planned, were looking forward to - and (in my case) were enjoying. They've vanished, and we don't know which bits - if any - will come back. Personally, I'm in the 'anger' stage at the moment - lots of shouting at the telly when inept politicians are announcing things that terrify me because they're so obviously going to cause a second huge surge in cases (& deaths). But I know that this is normal, is part of the grieving process, and will pass eventually.
Hang on in there everyone ❤️