Forgive me yet again

What a wonderful mother and grandmother you are Annie
After all you have been through, you are supporting and giving comfort to your family.
God bless you
I hope you get the answers to the questions that are whizzing around in your head.
They may not be easy to hear but hopefully will bring some understanding.

Thank you for sharing some of your lovely memories.
They made me smile.
It is a reminder to us all that making and sharing happy memories with loved ones is so important.
As that is what lives on after we have departed this earth

I wish you strength and pray you will find peace xxxx

Dear Annie my thoughts and prayers are with you x

MOnica , I will do that thank you. She couldn't live in that dark place any longer , she left four messages in the living room wall.

I can't fight it any longer I'm too tired

The childrens names followed by - I have loved you since the moment I conceived and always loved Dad.

To her sister - please take care of my dogs,

I love you Mum

I am in tears Annie and it takes a lot to do that.
We will always be here for you to rant, vent, weep with.
I hope your faith is sustaining you and your church members are helping you xx

I'm in tears too Annie. As everyone has said to you - we are all with you and with everyone else who is coping with loss.

I echo the last comments

Sending all my love Annie ?

And all my love as well Annie, I`m in tears reading your posts.

My love and prayers for you dear Annie x

Thank you so much, I really hit a low last night , I am so grateful for so much kindness and understanding x

Just remember that you are and never have to feel alone and sad. You have been through so much heartache Annie. We are all here for you x

Dear Annie, what a hard burden you have to bear. Please don’t apologise for needing to share it with friends on here. I hope you can see that no one minds and that folk want to support you through these tough times.
You’re trying to do the very best you can for your grandchildren and cope with your own sadness too. I’m sure they will bless you for your thoughtfulness in the years to come.
I read an article a few weeks ago and of course cannot lay my hand on it now. It was by a young woman who had felt so angry about her father, who took his life when she was a child, she felt he’d abandoned her and questioned his love for her. Someone supporting her suggested that he did love her and had never wanted to leave her for good but at that moment in time was just too unwell to be able carry on living.
Thinking of you xx

It is lovely to hear your happy memories Annie.

Thank you .luckygirl, rather indulgent of me but it helped . I must get use to things which suddenly upsets me , I was sorting through a pile of cross stitching today, came across one i stitched of the All Our .yesterday collection, two little Victorian girls paddling in the sea, I stitched it because it reminded me of my girls paddling when small, upset my girl will never see it but these are thing I have to get use to.

I am so grateful for all the kindness here, those statements were so distressing x

Thank you all , every post has made feel I am not so alone x

annie you have such lovely memories of your daughter. You must write them down, not only for her children to read but for you to remember. Remember she was happy and she loved you all. Cling to that knowledge. x

Annie I imagined I heard you smiling as you wrote those memories for us to read, so you must write them for her children too. You can share them in person with the children and answer their questions about their Mum. I don't think you'll have any problem keeping your daughter's memory alive if you carry on as you've started on here.

It's not quite the same, but I often still talk about my Dad almost twenty years after he died. It's up to us to make sure that the old saying 'Dead, but not forgotten' is true for a loved one. I'm sure you will play a big part in making sure it's true for your beloved daughter.

Hi Annie writing - and reading - can be very therapeutic and GN is a good place to do both (mostly)!
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You are being held, and held up, by the responses from the Gransnetters. Keep writing, and reading.

I hope you have a peaceful day today

Dear Annie, do you possibly think it might be helpful to have a little ceremony at the bridge. With a friend or a priest to say some words and then drop some flowers in to say 'God Bless" to her. Only of course when you feel it would be possible for you.
And my thoughts are with you. Have you been able to put on any weight?

loopy, I cannot go near the bridge. Only just remembered when I was sixteen my mother gave me a gold crucifix belong to a great aunt who had brought Mum up, she was an orphan.

One day I was leaning over the bridge to see the river in flood and the crucifix, which I wore every day, just fell off my neck and into the river. Had forgotten that,

Too many have died there, so always a sad place, now it is where my girl died.

I can only send my prayers, thoughts and love Anniebach, woefully inadequate as they are.
Big hug and thinking of you x

Prayers , kind thoughts and love are the most powerful gifts to give loopy , thank you x

Writing your memories of your darling daughter for your grandchildren is such a lovely idea Annie and will be so therapeutic for you as well as for them. As you write, as you think of all those times, your heart will be uplifted by all those happy moments, and you will be able to smile .

Please keep writing here and reading everyone's love and support for you - we really are all holding you in our virtual arms, helping you along the road through your grief. And never, ever apologise for posting here. Sending prayers as always, and so much love for you Annie

Annie

More and ((((hugs)))) - and a little hot nourishing chicken soup.